I am SOOOO confused

I literally wasted more than half of the day procrastinating on my work/ classes/ assignments. And for the past 3 days I have been procrastinating the entire way. I played video games, I hung out with friends, and the time that I was supposed to work. I didn’t. Could it be because I don’t know or I fear the work. I know it’s the discomfort of knowing, and simple discomfort of doing things in general. There is so much activation energy needed, to do things for me. It’s a perfectionism thing, but I don’t know what the hell it is. Like I don’t know why I am so undisciplined. Like I don’t get It. There are few conclusions as to why these past three days have been like this Fear of unknown Fear of FOMO Fear of not finishing things Fear of not doing it “right” or “correctly” not being able to do it messy and unfinished or not knowing if I made progress Fear and discomfort of the task or the thing not making any meaningful progress in my life. Part of it is that I don't know what to do anymore. It's confusion and when clarity comes to me, clarity is the biggest anxiety reliever ever. I know action is the only way to gain more clarity but when I take any action I doubt whether that action is correct. This really hurts me, not just before, but during and after. Before, I want to avoid all the discomfort of doing things wrong or working on the wrong things in the wrong way. I want to do everything that is very meaningful and I don't want to be bad at it. I think a huge part of it is also time investment because I know I'm bad. For the first time I try something, whatever that might be, if it's trying to learn something, you're supposed to not know and figure it out out. I know that figuring it out, knowing that if I were to do it in the right way, in order to really have a good handle, as in figuring it out takes time. Okay. Figuring out takes time and I am scared that when I start something, it is going to take longer than I wanted because I want to do a lot of things. If I spend a lot of my time on one thing for an extended period of time, I am scared that I am not going to be able to stick to that one thing for a long amount of time. There is this fear of not being able to be productive while doing the task, which is really weird. A big part of it is first having the entire thing set up; that's the first thing, the environment, right? If the environment isn't correct, okay if the environment isn't correct, I mean that it's not good enough. For example when I say "environment isn't correct," I mean it's like it's not good enough, like my ability. I fear this is literally a little weird. For example I wake up in the morning and I know I have to do stuff now. One big thing is activation energy. One thing is the fear of uncertainty and the unknown (FOMO), and the scary factor is that now I have to plan. I have to plan for the day ahead, knowing that it will bring me a lot of distress and anxiety. To plan things out and to prioritize is the biggest first thing because I am constantly scared of prioritizing the wrong things. There are so many things I want to do: • Learn AI • Work on my business • Work on another skill at the same time • Work on my classes and get good grades • Apply to internships and jobs and stuff like that and network I want to do all of it because if I don't do all of it, I am officially behind. I feel behind and I know I am behind. Me, before even waking up, for example, and knowing that, all this comes at me at once in my head. This is what I'm going to have to go through, and it's this overwhelming pressure to do anything right to start. I also know that if I were to break all of the things that I wanted to do down into tiny tiny steps, I literally have anxiety doing that as well. I know that breaking down things itself takes up so much of my energy and so much because of the staying with that anxiousness and having to sort of fight it and then having to figure out how to break things down for all the tasks that I need to do. On top of that I know I need to sort of, like, not only that. Now I know that when I first, let's say, break things down, right, even though I will break down the task, the task will still be difficult. Breaking down that task into smaller chunks, yes, it does help but it doesn't help enough because I know I'm going to be bad and I know it's going to take a lot of time. There is also the scare and the fear that I'm not prioritizing the right thing, I'm not doing the right thing, or I'm doing too slow. That's the big thing too, or that my pace of progress is too slow. The world is moving extremely fast and I can't keep up. I have to learn everything and anything, and I have to just, like, learn the latest AI news to be on top of it. I have to learn the latest tech skill, and now there's the other layer: how do I do that? How do I do it in a way that is actually with good progress? I am in a program called I Can Study, and there is an aspect of learning skills and all these things. I have to work on those techniques and everything, and I know how long it takes to work on those techniques. I can't, and I know I need to create a system where I am using the techniques together once everything is habit. Because of that it really really hurts because it's like I don't know what to do. I just don't know how to move along without having all these layers of pressure over me. It's like what I know that I have, in terms of ERP, is that I'm supposed to stick with it and just go with it and stick with it, as in be with the feeling and see my anxiety where it needs me and all that stuff. The thing is I know how difficult it is and how hard it is to do that, because while I'm doing it I feel like I'm wasting time. I am not doing things correctly. I'm not doing enough, and this really really hurts me and my progress. Another part is that you are telling me to do this, to progress and stuff, but the idea of progression itself makes me anxious because optimizing. A lot of times, if I don't make progress, I feel like there is no purpose behind what I do, and it's inefficient and a waste of time because I don't know how to make progress. When do I know that, after doing it for 2 minutes, I should do it for 5 minutes now for this week? I overanalyze these types of things.