What even is this

Masking is difficult. What might help is being honest about your struggles. If someone fails to understand then they weren’t worth keeping in your circle to begin with.

Well, you know when you're shopping that very few people are going to interact with you at all, so it's kind of passive. You're just one person in the crowd, and unless somebody in particular knows you or wants to get to know you better, it's unlikely you're even going to talk to anyone other than the cashier. Class is an open ball game, though. I would get so tired of going to class and nobody would speak up and answer questions because they didn't want to be wrong. Unfortunately, then the class would just not move forward because the teacher was insisting on asking a million questions and wouldn't move on until somebody answered, meaning that I would just speak up and answer them to move the class along. Then people would be some kind of way about how I was always answering questions, have some positive or negative opinion about me or even smirk if I got things wrong, even though they didn't have the confidence to speak up. It's a rough environment in a lot of cases, but I think you can get a lot of power for just learning to not care about what they think even if you don't like going out, seeing people or talking to them. I don't care as much about others anymore and I rarely go anywhere if I don't have to, but I'm also not overthinking constantly about other people's stuff anymore either. There is a cost, your social life or your peace, and you're the only one that can make it for yourself.

Its okay to feel how you feel. Dealing with people can be hard. I don't know honestly if this your case but when I was studying about realshionship OCD and found out about feeling disgusted about your spouse its because the way we respond to feelings disgusted. OCD causes a complete inability to accept flaws and uncertainty and this has made itself a reality in how I have dealt with people. If this is not you I still support you and I know you don't know me but we are all on team beat OCD!