OCD spiral.

In my experience, the uncertainty you feel before the appointment is far worse than dealing with the outcome of the appointment.

It's not unusual for anyone to be concerned about a medical outcome. One thing you can try is to tell yourself, "I accept the uncertainty about the outcome, because I can't tell the future, but I'll worry about it if and when the situation ever presents itself." I don't know if that will help much, but the good news is that you recognize you're just having an OCD flare-up. I've noticed that at times OCD will flare up when I'm concerned about something else, almost like it's trying to divert me from worrying about the real-life situation. (Of course, then I'm worrying about the OCD flare-up, so it's like-pick your poison...) OCD is basically malware in our brains, which can get unraveled with OCD therapy, but it takes us on a mental rollercoaster. Hope this helps some.

Remember it’s just OCD until proven otherwise. I’m rooting for you, 💪🏻 hopefully it’s some good news! If you’re comfortable, let us know how it goes!

Hang in there! I totally understand and get that way too.

Hope you are doing good. I have severe health ocd so any appts make me spiral even routine stuff. Honestly its a nightmare sometimes. I actually took a few days off work and my husband dropped me off at the marina by our house to get me out. Definetly found getting outdoors and writing helps me. Its so hard to sit with uncertainty.

I really care Caitlin and know it is very easy to say words when we are suffering - I find that Pure OCD as they call it now with me makes the rules - whatever I do this mental health illness knows - I first had the therapy way back in 1997 but of course my OCD as it was back then is a very private thing so being in a therapists office does not mean I am asking him for a hoover to tidy his office - it hits me alone just me - and makes the rules Caitlin - anyways I have Pure OCD now as the rituals are fierce and intense and as I have hardly no energy with my mental health issues aside from the OCD which I never knew was a mental health illness until 2015 as the NHS has no continuity in who you see and have not time for you to try and say how you feel as they are so busy - all my mental preparation goes out the window but the last treatment therapy about six session was in 1997 - it is a lonely illness as you say one thing and they will say another so I could never say to you Caitlin that it is all in your head and go and read a book as to me that is being rude to you Caitlin and showing no interest but that is how I have been treated - even if I had a drink the OCD will not disappear but haven't had a drink for a long time and what I mean is in the old days if you have a drink or two or three you could tend to forget what your problems are or your problems do not feel as bad but once the OCD and my other mental health issues all came in my mid twenties then of course things changed dramatically and I was even diagnosed with OCD from an entirely different doctor to my own GP surgery and when I told my usual GP he gave me a sarcastic stare - sorry I am getting myself worked up as I feel with all my mental health that I am not believed and just attention seeking - sorry Caitlin and take good care - I mean that