Exhausted

I relate! I relate so much. My first therapist was not a good fit (to put kindly), and I was DEVASTATED. I thought it was over and that erp wasn’t for me. I’ve tried so many other therapies that either didn’t help, or it actually hurt. I feel this way. After the devastating blow from my last therapist, and a slow recovery from the hep of a listening, supportive, kind and knowledgeable friend, I realized I could try again. It might not be good, but I could at least try. So far I’m doing better. But! I hadn’t really gotten to erp yet as I was really early on with my first therapist. I’m going in somewhat more prepared that yes, this is part of the growth. It seems like a cycle, but really it’s a spiral up. It’s training, conditioning, your brain to new ways of existing. All to say, I think this is part of the process, as grueling and defeating as it is.

Im there too. Just increased my meds. I just want to live like it seems everyone else is. It is exhausting. Its hard but it will get better. We have to hang in there! Im right there too.

Oh yes when i increased my own dose it spiked up a lot. I'm in that same spot rn as you so i feel ya I've had OCD for like three years and every new thought or old is square one again. Things do get better eventually though because I’ve seen the better side of this it just takes time so we go this

i’ve been feeling this way too

I’m right there with you

The worse setbacks feel the better you’re actually getting. Things will get better, unfortunately it just takes time. It’s also very normal to have a temporary worsening of symptoms as you increase.

I’m so sorry you’re struggling. I really relate! Out of curiosity, are you on birth control?

I'm exhausted as well. I try to think about this condition logically but I can never grasp it and then I'm just more terrified. I was doing so well for a while but I've regressed and wand to get on a better path.