I know what it feels like...

When I rejoined NOCD after a year or so of remission from this disorder, I was in one of my worst spirals yet. I would see these "OCD Conqueror" posts & still feel no hope. I wanted to share mine for one reason, to tell others that I see them. I know what it feels like to not want to accept living like this. I understand how intrusive thoughts can make you feel like a monster. With therapy & time I'm doing a lot better. The hope I have for the future ebbs & flows. There are still days where OCD/anxiety wreck me. However, support exists. My therapist has helped me get to this point & realize there is a way to live with OCD. I won't sugar coat it, because recovery is difficult & never truly ends. Sometimes you have to accept it, then get out of your own way to start living again. "We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." Sirius Black, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix 🐦‍🔥