Im so lost and confused

That's okay! You don't need to know what to do right away, you can take some time first How are you feeling at the moment? (Also, just so you know, for some reason I don't get notifications of messages unless you click the "Reply" button on one of my messages, so I would make sure to click that if you want me to get a notification for your message :))

@Anonymous Hey, sounds good! I've been numb and exhausted frankly.

@izzy_ I see. I feel numb a lot myself, so I understand the feeling... Even now I'm feeling numb. And it's okay to feel exhausted too of course, it sounds very exhausting

I appreciate it. Yeah after trying to have a conversation with my mom I felt she wasn't listening to what I was trying to tell her. It's hard trying to explain hmhow ocd affects me. But the way that I explain it she says its normal and everyone goes through it. That I just have to focus on being grateful and look at the positives in my life cos I dont have a bad life and think that I'm much better off than people with physical disabilities who wish to be in my shoes. I told my therapist i needed space to figure myself out cos i was talking with her, my mom, and my friends...and everyone was giving me different advice and i was so confused on who to listen to. The. I realized this morning that leaving my therapist was a wrong move. Cos I cant stop fighting my own head and wish someone would just give me the answers I am looking for. And maybe my therapist is right but im scared of trusting her. Idk

@izzy_ I feel like people don't listen to me either, and it seriously hurts when family doesn't understand... I know it feels impossible to explain OCD. In a way, everyone has intrusive thoughts sometimes, but not to the same extent that people with OCD have them. And I feel like being grateful doesn't make our problems not a concern, and it feels dismissive when someone says to simply be grateful Everyone is unique, and nobody's advice will be perfect, including my own advice. If I may ask, why are you worried about trusting your therapist? (Don't worry, I'm just here to listen, I wouldn't judge! :))

@Anonymous Yeah. I just felt like my mom wasn't listening to me. Anyways, cos I dont know if doing higher level of care is right for me. A small part of me wants to give it a chance cos I have the opportunity to. But the other part of me is closed off and worried and scared what my family would think

@izzy_ I see... Yeah, I understand what you mean. Well, I'm here if you need someone to listen and talk through it with! Or we could talk about anything that you would like to talk about!