faith ocd bad spiral

Been spiraling cuz my screen time has been SO bad. And I was doing so good for a while and during lent and now I’m embarrassed it’s so bad and that’s literally awful. Such high anxiety and our phones are literally the down fall and they scare me so much. Like it’s such an addiction like I feel like I have to respond immediately you know and just always want to pick it up like that’s literally not normal and should never use it for comfort. And spiraling of what’s to come technically wise and the anti Christ and all the scary things. Then choose my phone over spending time with God and then feel awful. Or when I do spend time with good it feels like it doesn’t matter anymore. Have such high anxiety and it’s such a big distraction. And I get nervous when people say are you ready in regards to Jesus return cuz it’s soon and then makes me spiral that I’m not. And scared if I go to hell cuz I’m on my phone too much and don’t want to be deceived and scripture isn’t as close to my heart and I’m just ignoring all the signs that are coming. Deeply afraid im focusing on things that don’t matter. Everything with the government and leaders are all set up for what’s going to happen biblically. I feel like I can’t ever feel peace or I can’t do deep dives biblically and accept real truths. Like how am I supposed to be prepared if I just spiral every second. And it scares me cuz like we bring them everywhere like I just can’t even focus cuz I’m spiraling. And just like scroll scroll scroll. I’m scared

Cher54

Date posted: 20h

You are preaching to the choir sister, I know exactly how you feel! I have the same problem with my phone. And I too get on it and then I’m not praying like I should at that time. You are not alone, I am sure there are so so many people that are addicted to it. And the thing is it’s so tempting because you can look up everything and if you go to Google, you will see all of these news feeds down through there. And you start looking at them. You look at one and read about it and then you’ll see another one and another one and you’re hooked! And my kids are on Instagram now these are grown kids and that’s another place to get hooked is on social media. I mean they have such cute cat videos and different videos that are funny. I don’t think it is wrong to watch those things but time gets away if you’re on it a lot. I thought about just setting a timer and allowing myself only so much time to be on it. I don’t know how that would work because like you I get texts from my girls a lot and then we get on a subject and we’re going back-and-forth. It’s a matter of self discipline which honestly I just don’t have. And I know that one of the fruits of the spirit is self-control. And I guess that fruit has died because I’m not good at it at all. Now I read my Bible on the phone and other things that are good or listen to Christian music. It is such a big distraction because there’s so much information on it. But it’s not a bad thing if it is used in moderation. But that’s hard to do. we are just going to have to work on it. And you are not going to hell because you are on your phone too much. Jesus died for all of our sins and he loves you. He knows we’re just human. Prayers for us both. 🙏🏻❤️

Cher54

Date posted: 20h

@Cher54 Also, I am not as close to the Lord like I used to be, and I think about the end times as well. We just can’t worry about all this stuff that goes on around us because God is in control no matter if it looks like he isn’t. It’s easy to ruminate about spiritual things. I have done that as well. I think we try just to be perfect and no one‘s perfect and we want to be sure of things, especially if you read about something that seems scary and then you’re afraid that you are going to do it or are doing it. Try to just pray about it and then let it go. The letting go part is the hardest for me. But we can do it. Just take small steps, a day at a time. I’m preaching to myself as well. I feel like I give pretty good advice, but I’m not using that advice to help myself. And one of my things is also ruminating while I pray, repeating the same sentence over and over and then intrusive thoughts coming in. It’s exhausting. It makes you not want to pray when you have to struggle like that. I have spent so much time worrying and ruminating over things when I could have been doing something else which brings guilt. It’s just not worth it. I want to be happy and have peace in my life, the kind of peace that only God can give, not the world. I hope I have said something to help you. It resonated with me when I read your post. Now I need to take my own advice. ❤️

G C

Date posted: 19h

@Cher54 Yes!! So true. It is really hard. Idk how to surrender sometimes cuz I feel like I’m like God how can I release this to you then still worry

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 19h

I think the most important thing for you to realize right now is that you are loved by God. Don't worry about what is happening in the world. You don't need to think about it right now. The most important lesson for you to learn is that you are loved by God, and that you are safe in him. That's it for now. Just think about that today. And put everything else out of your mind. :)

G C

Date posted: 20h

Like what if even Christian’s aren’t ready and will be deceived. And don’t know the deep stuff cuz I look at real things happening and all the secret things that are hidden and like numerology and Hollywood and all the dark things that happen and how the world is a stage but also is so scary for me and hard to accept what if I’m just not paying attention enough

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