OCD as Gods voice?

So I have a desire to marry in my culture, which is Italian American and I desire to marry my culture so much. I even got confirmation one time that God said it was OK for me to go to achieve this. However, I keep getting feelings that he said no to the desire and it’s breaking my heart and I have no peace. After I spoke to a priest on Friday, I’ve had no peace at all about dropping this desire. At first anxiety, and then depression. The priest doesn’t understand about OCD and he said I’m rejecting Gods will and that scared me. I feel happy when I think about achieving this desire and feel like I’m so blessed to be this way. I had feelings on Saturday that God did say no and it killed me with mostly depression. Another time another catholic told me that the reason why I’m feeling this way is because I’m rejecting that God said no, and it made me feel even more worse. In my heart, I feel that God did not say no to this desire at all, and he said yes, technically he did from the confirmation that he had given me. Has OCD ever made it seem like that God said no to your dream or desire?

pureolife

Date posted: 18h

What you’re doing right now is actually a series of compulsions. And those are going to make your doubt and ocd worse in the long run. You’re fueling it. Your priest isn’t ocd informed and doesn’t realize he’s enabling your compulsions. You need to stop consulting him on your ocd. You can go to him for anything else, but for this the best person to talk to is an ocd specialist. Mentally reviewing these past feelings, checking yourself now to see how to respond to the ideas, analyzing your reasoning again and again, looking for forgiveness or reassurance from a priest, all compulsions. Which means you have to stop. “Maybe god supports this decision. But maybe not. I don’t need to know with any more certainty than I already have in this moment. I don’t need to figure this out right now.” And move on to something in the present moment.

Burnsey

Date posted: 19h

Pray on it. Give this to God and ask for clarity. I do not know what’s ahead God’s will is for you. But He does love you. I think perhaps, were it me, I might ask for my love life to be simply up to Him, up to His timing, up to who He would have me to marry. Sometimes what we think is our most beautiful outcome is not even close to what could be. I don’t think we even truly know what we want. I believe we think we do, but oftentimes I have obtained something I thought I wanted only to find that it was not what I wanted at all. Let God have this and ask for clarity. Ask Him to guide you to His will for you. Get in the Word, get in prayer, and make good choices, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I have prayed for you, and though I’m a sinner perhaps as low as it gets, I know that He loves you. He showed us that through His Son. As magnificent as that showing is, I think we can rest with total assurance that He cares for us and wants good for us. Take this to Him. And kick OCD in the nethers a couple times a day just for fun. Cheers!

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