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What was y’all’s childhood likes?
Little me had these quirks like •following rules to a T •Making my parents bed •Having an organized room Please vent I crave the stories
Little me had these quirks like •following rules to a T •Making my parents bed •Having an organized room Please vent I crave the stories
When i was a kid I felt like I had to be perfect. I needed to have the perfect grades and behave the best. I have a super strict routine that distressed me if altered. The schedule was due to my mother having OCD but otherwise I was inflicting the stress on myself.
@Juliette26 What you mean you had to try? B, I’m flawless💅 lol jk I’m pretty sure everyone felt like they had to be perfect at school, baby’s first trigger right there. No matter how much I tried I couldn’t live up to my impossible standards in a system not made for me, my mother made things worse with her ocd as well, it’s not entirely her fault though, she tried to do what she thought would set me up for academic success, it’s hard to do that when you’re struggling mentally though. No grade was worth the stress if I was close to having a complete breakdown though
I personally always felt the need to confess every lil bad thing I did😭
@jeremias189 That’s literally what I gifted myself after graduating high school, told my dad all the sneaking out and underaged drinking I’d committed like I was on my deathbed
@macarena3412 OMGG THAT WAS MY PLAN TOO😭😭 when I was like 13 I always planned to on my birthday confess all my wrongdoings to my parents 😭I never did it for some reason thankfully, I had sort of a pause in my OCD until I turned like 17 and then it was back at it again and WAY stronger 😭🤕
@jeremias189 16-17 is when the ocd spike hits out of nowhere, ofc not for everyone, unfortunately my ocd spike at 16 was a few months into covid💀 F
A lot of my perfectionism is self-inflicted lol. My parents never put a ton of pressure on me. I used to believe nothing I made or did was "good enough" even if people told me otherwise.
@izzyshaw17 Me with art, just actually practiced my instrument for the first time today in 6 years, i avoided playing it because i thought “well if you’re gonna do it, do it right, don’t practice until you get a instructor” and so i avoided playing until i had everything “good enough”. Life’s not a talent show, just say fuck it and do it while accepting the uncertainty of “but what if I do it wrong”
@macarena3412 That's so amazing. I'm so happy for you. I can relate to that! Whenever I try to play piano, I get frustrated with myself because I want to practice, but I get this feeling that I'm not going to improve. I'm so proud of you for fighting that fear! It takes time and I need to do the same someday too. The same thing happens with any drawing/painting projects. I get so upset because I'll have an idea/image in my head and have no idea how to properly recreate it. I hope someday I can accept uncertainty and just go with the flow with that as well.
I don't really think I developed OCD until later in life so I was a shy kid who just did my own thing. Had a lot of sensory problems though which were the one thing my parents weren't sympathetic toward
@mjr-rust Ugh. Same, I’m considering on whether not I should blast air horns randomly, let’s see who’s being over dramatic then
Same, I had strict moral upbringing. High expectations on perfection.
@Anonymous With a possible side of melt downs if something wasn’t perfect?
@macarena3412 Yes!!!
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