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Yeah that sounds like normal for ocd and anxiety. I had similar thought patterns as well. The checking and the negative thoughts in positive moments can happen in ocd. Try to let the thoughts pass by and don't obsess over them. Also remember that even if you did like girls, that would be fine. It doesn’t mean the love for your boyfriend isn't real or that you don't want to be with him. Next time you have the thought just acknowledge that it existed and shrug your shoulders and say maybe, maybe not but I do know I love my boyfriend.

Yep, sounds like a really common case of sexual orientation OCD with rumination as a mental compulsion. Just let the thoughts come and go without treating them as a problem to solve or something to interpret.

I would really encourage you to seek ERP therapy if you have the means. Based on your activity in the forums over the past three weeks it seems like you are in a state of immense stress and anxiety. Your posts on here are also a compulsion, and no amount of replies that this does sound like classic sexual orientation OCD is going to give you relief in the long run.

I can relate! Here’s some food for thought, it doesn’t matter. If you like girls or if you like boys or if you do or don’t know that you like girls or boys or whether you can or can’t find out, or if it affects your relationships or if it doesn’t. None of it actually matters, and I am saying that with love. questioning your sexuality is a human thing, babe! is it normal? heck yeah! is the OCD and anxiety normal? That too! You are human. Maybe spend some time with yourself, NOT thinking, but challenging your thoughts and finding the present.