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Advice about my bf .. pocd? Trigger warning
Trigger warning ! **21 or older *** There’s an old thing that’s been bothering that’s came up . I’ll post what I wrote to a friend 3 years ago about something that happened when I was 19 with my bf that was 19 as well . From 2022 👇 Ima tell you what I’m obsessing over . Basically when me and my bf started dating in. 2021 . We were both 19.I was looking through his my eyes only on Snapchat . I think we were looking at it together and there was nudes he brought from girls before me and him were together . There was an old nude of a girl from maybe 2015 and I told him to delete bc idk why he would still have that in his phone bc at the time the girl was a minor in the pic (she was 14) and just to make this very clear *he was also a MINOR we he got the pic *** . Someone had leaked nudes of a classmate in middle school .He’s the same age as her . I remember when this happened too. And I believe he did delete it when I said that . I believe he said he forgot he had that nude in there . But I don’t rmeber the conversation much . I talked to him about it . So basically he said before he was 18 he had switched phones and deleted it before but then it somehow backed up in another phone in 2020.. that the year he was 18 and he said he moved it into his my eyes only but deleted out his camera roll bc that’s where he had all his nudes . In his eyes only . And I asked him why he didn’t delete it all together . He said he don’t know why he did that . And that he forgot it was in there for a whole year until I seen it . Bc he never scrolled down there to see. Before he even was 18 he told me he had deleted it but it backed up somehow an again . But apparently he was trying to get every nude that was in his camera roll in his eyes only on Snapchat . I keep having what ifs like what if he put I there bc he wanted to look at it but apparently he don’t know why he did that . He said he don’t remember when he did it . He could’ve moved it in 2018 or 2020 . He doesn’t rmeebr . In 2018 he. Was 16 and 2020 he was 18. Now, Since the obsession came back this month , I asked him about it again this is what he’s saying now,as of 2026 That he believes he already had the old nude in the eyes only before he was 18 bc after her nude got leaked when the clsssmate was 14 and he was also 14 , he kept it then two years later when he was 16 he put it in his eyes only then forgot about it after . He saying he never went look at the nude when he was 18 .he said he’s not like that . Im just anxious and questioning why are his answers different. Maybe I misinterpreted or he did 3 years ago when this obsession started… I’m just confused why this is bothering me so bad again after 3 years . I don’t want to believe my bf is a p bc I don’t think he is but what if I’m naive . We are both 24 now.. just scared my ocd has taken this out of context and I’m accusing him of something he didn’t do . I try to keep his morals in mind bc he had to make me realize that a guy that was 20 and that was dating me When I was 17 is pedophilia. And he thinks his sister baby daddy is a pedo Phile bc his sister baby daddy was 18 when and his sister was15 when they started dating . He’s also a victim of being R*ped as kid by an older person . So basically I’m just scared that he seen the photo at 18 and kept it but didn’t do anything with it . That’s what it seems I’m saying in the 2022 convo . But idk if I was misunderstanding him?? Am I looking too deep into this? What to believe?I haven’t been out of bed bc of this . I barely eat , thus is consuming me Also A month ago my bf confessed he has a porn addiction so maybe this has induced my ocd flare up