Its funny how different i am now

It became a tradition coming back here once a year to read my own old posts. Actually I have changed a lot. I am now a person who has a job, goes to collage with straight A’s (trying for it this semester too) and is trying to live the Life to fullest by keeping the right people next to her. Meanwhile I still cannot get over some things you know? Its just so damn hard sometimes to live with OCD. When I was younger it was definitely worse. But now as a 20 yo it became kind of something that I can control but that still freaks me out you know? So recently i switched majors from computer science to business. Why i did that was because i was trying to get a job with 4 years of experience with coding and a huge portfolio but here we are nobody needs a developer when ai can do it. I was so stressed out because of it for months guys. Then after thinking for days and doing research decided that I am a pretty active person and wanna choose something where i can think creatively and grow. I chose business. And yet i had no idea that people lowkey make fun of that major lmao, what the heck? And it made me feel so hesitant even tho i was feeling relieved that i made a decision. Seriously just because a random stupid guy with his gf who don’t know who they are in this life and are in bio chem just told me that business is so cringe and i was like- well now everyone gotta be in bio chem or what like… but the worst is that it actually made me hesitant! And recently i have been so drained because of my exams and friendship break ups and getting a drivers license, and here is my dad complaining that “she doesn’t wanna do anything”. With my head and logic i know that i do a lot. I work and have my own money, i study, i try my best but it feels like people never get enough? With my head i understand that i am doing ok, but when a person close to me says something like that, pressures me into growing and “trying” when i just finally settled for some time and font wanna rush is just freaking me out actually 😭 and I am thinking about it the whole week now and i need a goddamn break atp. Whoever read this, thanks for your time!