My OCD is just getting worse. I don’t know what is real and what is not anymore. I just can’t live with the uncertainty. It makes living tough. I just ruminate trying to get the story that makes me feel no guilt. But this just reinforces everything. I feel so guilty and like a terrible person
It is so ironic that I saw this post right after I posted mine. My post is listed under the caption, Regret and sorrow. You have said basically the same thing that I had said. I know exactly how you feel. ❤️😢
@Cher54 I’m sorry, my post was titled, Past regrets and sorrow.
Thanks @Cher54 for the support. Appreciate it.
Are you dealing with false memories?
@strike1207 It could be but I’m not sure.
I feel for you and I feel with you! Sometimes things do truly feel like it’s impossible. Day to day living is exhausting trying not to fear. With this community and support system I believe it’s possible to be strong and overcome. It’s near! Keep being you, let yourself feel what you feel, and I believe in you!
You are doing your best and it all feels like it is too much.. do you have a therapist?
@GratitudeGirl I have just started with a therapist. Doing my OCD hierarchy at the moment. But new things come up, I mean how long must this hierarchy be
@Paul85 The heirarchy can be as simple as you are willing to put onto paper.. sometimes even writing your OCDs on paper can be very uncomfortable but trust me I have done it and you are okay.. the point is to pick those of less anxiety and more anxiety out of order and work on them.. do your best but remember slow and steady wins the race.. remember your values and who you are.. give your OCD a funny name to separate it from your values.. you got this
@GratitudeGirl Thank you for this. It helps me a lot. You are right it is uncomfortable. But I will continue. You have given me some motivation now
@Paul85 Im so glad.. OCD feels like it controls us but it does not.. you are in control.. try to push the urge of compulsion you can do it!! Im proud of you
@GratitudeGirl Does ERP mean you are supposed to put all your sick thoughts down on paper? I don’t want to tell my thoughts to anyone, if this is true then I don’t think I would want to do the ERP. I’m just not doing that.
@Cher54 Aw I know its tough but I wouldnt start with that.. I would start with the easiest compulsions that you have like maybe that you feel guilty when you say something to someone and it was not your mistake like that.. to me that doesnt feel uncomfortable but to you it might be something else.. even writing one thing at first is better.. it actually feels liberating.. how about you use a pencil and write it sit for 2 min if you can and then erase what you wrote if it gets to feel like too much
@Cher54 The point is to take away the power you give to OCD because OCD is just an urge and a compulsion but you know who you are and what your values are so whatever you do its just to lessen the tension
@GratitudeGirl So is the point to write down these thoughts or compulsions or such and then just throw it away? I don’t think that would help me because even though you throw the paper away it’s still in your head. I think I’ll just keep with my little mantra that came into my head that says, Out of my head and into His hands. I’ve come to the conclusion pretty much that what works for some people may not work for others. That’s just my opinion. I’m a Christian and I tried to use what it says in the Bible about anxiety and thinking good thoughts and such, but with me, it is the self discipline part that I lack. It takes work either way and it does work if you keep at it. My problem is analyzing everything and analysis is paralysis that’s for sure. I pray for everybody on here because we are all in this together and it is hard and it is the pits but we must keep moving forward. That’s what I have to tell myself every day. I like that idea of giving your OCD a funny name. Like, “Oh here comes Buford again, go take a hike. You have no power over me anyway.” Like I said whatever works. ❤️
@Cher54 That was supposed to be. I try to use what’s in the Bible, not tried. It wouldn’t let me edit that.
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