This stresses me out so much

Throughout the months where my anxiety and mental health towards everything has been extremely overwhelming, and my OCD has been through the ABYSS . You guys have mentioned me to open up, and to that I can't fully do that, but I wanted to still take a bit of the advice. I did open up with not really feeling well at school and almost have such fear with interacting with others, especially at school, and I've briefly tried to express that I just haven't been doing well with stuff like that and.. I just feel so fearful. But I also just given up with many things. I haven't told them anything about OCD obviously though, nor the much deeper stuff. But at this point they should've gotten the jist, it's been years and years on briefly trying to open up. And what's the response to that? Oh yeah, I'm just in the middle of stressing over this stupid zoo program they want me to apply for, I KEEP telling them that they don't allow submissions unless if you're in a program already and they keep asking "how though, HOW, keep looking" or call the service which- no ! I don't even care about this. T_T "You don't want to talk to people at school ? Join a program then and meet people there. You should blah blah blah" and.. more programs.. and more begging to join clubs.. and... I get the intentions but I feel as if they just push aside the question where it's like "Why does she feel this way? How can we FIRST help in regards to the main issue which is her mental health?" And straight to "let's make her join (X) or do (X) and make her fix her problems with more exposure." And if I deny or chicken out I'm seen as one who doesn't try ! What do you guys think ? I do love my family and they do care for me, but DANG they suck BAD with mental health.