- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- Yesterday
Health Anxiety, need support
Hi everyone! Just looking for exposures or some support as I am not able to be in therapy at the moment. Recently my dad was diagnosed with cancer (glioblastoma) and since I’ve been insanely concerned and obsessive about my health. It started with being afraid I had a brain tumor, then it was skin cancer, and now it’s breast cancer. For about a month I’ve been obsessively giving myself self exams and poking around daily to the point where I irritated one so badly that it essentially lactated (lol) which then made me spiral more. It hasn’t happened since and lately I’ve been trying to stop checking but it is very hard. I fell back into poking and prodding my breasts and armpits and they are incredibly sore. I have a obgyn appointment in 3 weeks so I’m trying to stop beforehand but my brain is convinced if I stop checking I’m going to miss something important. I’m 24 years old and I know this is probably just a reaction to my dad’s diagnosis and coping with the fact that we are all vulnerable to illness but it all still feels very real and threatening. Anything asymmetrical or anything I haven’t noticed before on my breast sends me into a spiral. Does anyone have any words of wisdom or exposures that may help in the meantime before I see my gyno?