I believe I have harm OCD.

I feel like my compulsions are different than everyone else. I say really bad things in my mind out of no where or get images and it freaks me out so I think I have to fix it. My way of fixing is trying to say the opposite of what my thought was. For example “I swear to never do that” but when I say the sentence I have to picture somebody. And if I keep doing it wrong, I have to keep doing it. Anyone else have similar compulsions?

CamJ

Date posted: Yesterday

This is a very common compulsion, you’re not alone at all! It’s also good to remind yourself that your harm OCD does NOT reflect your true intentions at all, especially if you feel the need to do that sort of compulsion. However, as helpful as it might seem to say or think the opposite thing, it’s reinforcing the idea that you *have to* in order for the thought to not be real. It’ll take time to figure out how to stop the compulsion, but I believe in you:) Keep moving forward <3

Tea and Honey

Date posted: Yesterday

These are CLASSIC symptoms for OCD!!!!! Just classic. I would love to talk to you more. I remember when I was feeling just like you are feeling now. The thing that you really need to learn is that the thoughts are not dangerous. You don't need to be worried about the thoughts. The thoughts are ego-dystonic, which means they are against your core values. And that's why they feel disturbing. However, the problem is not that the thoughts are in your head. The problem is that people with OCD give MEANING to the thoughts. Therapy will help you allow the thoughts to run freely through your head without doing anything about them. Just remember, you are not alone. The intrusive thoughts are just one part of obsessive compulsive disorder. In fact, the word "obsession" in the context obsessive compulsive disorder is actually referring to the thoughts. And the "compulsion" is actually anything that we do in order to try to "fix" the thoughts. You have to understand that when you try to "fix"your thoughts, you are actually engaging in a compulsion! :) And therapy will help you to stop doing compulsions. When we do compulsions, we only make the OCD cycle worse and reinforce our fears There's very good treatment for OCD, and it is called ERP therapy. However, it takes people an average of 13 years to get therapy. Sometimes they suffer all this time by themselves, not really understanding how OCD is holding them captive. The goal therapy is to get your life back. You don't have to be afraid of these thoughts!!! It's important for you to get good therapy, like at NOCD, so that you can learn how OCD works and how you can choose to ignore it. Not everyone offers ERP. That's why I recommend NOCD so highly. However, you can find ERP locally, but you have to ask around. I know how much you are suffering. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I'm right here if you want to talk. I have learned so much over all the years. I would love to share what I know

Hensley2004

Date posted: 17h

@Tea and Honey Thank you! My mind says the worst things possible. It’s like ticks in my head. I just say them randomly. Like I said the other day “I swear to go to hurt/💀) someone dear to me. And it freaked me out so bad and I’ve been stuck trying to fix it for two weeks now. And I feel like a horrible person like why do I say those things. It horrible. I know this shouldn’t be public but I fear I’m the only one that’s gotten those thoughts or say those things. I think my mind knows I don’t want to say it so it says it all the time. And I try to replace it. I feel like a monster

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