Idk this is weird

Between having OCD about the fear of my heart and having some relationship OCD basically today was about my relationship Today I was having a hard time talking to my boyfriend. I don’t know if it’s because of my lady days, but I was talking to my boyfriend and I had this sudden urge of crying. I got upset with him because I’m starting to notice he’s been working a lot recently and he’s been not responding as much so I get anxiety and start thinking. Maybe I’m not that attractive or maybe he’s talking to someone else and I recognize that these are OCD thoughts but it’s so hard to block them when they pass through my mind today I was telling him that I think we should break up because we hardly see each other. I could see him only once a week and maybe once every other week depending on how he manages his financial stability and he’s been basically talking a lot about work and what goes on at Work. His life revolves around work and sometimes I try to start different conversations with them and it’s hard because I feel like when he doesn’t communicate as much he has lost interest in trying to conversate with me. I think about it all the time. And I started crying and getting angry with him cause I feel like he’s getting distant. And probably doesn’t want to talk and this is a lie.

Anonymous

Date posted: 7d

I'm sorry, I hear you... Those are really difficult feelings to go through. Relationships can feel so difficult sometimes, and I worry about my relationships too, and I know those are difficult fears to have

Jailyn.h1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7d

@Anonymous Yeah exactly. I’m trying and as a person who struggles with this idk what the uncertainty would be but it’s hard to accept.

Anonymous

Date posted: 6d

@Jailyn.h1 I understand what you mean... I have similar worries with my friends, and I know that fears about relationships can be so tough to have...

Jailyn.h1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 6d

@Anonymous Right so true. Sometimes I don’t even understand exposure response therapy. It’s to sit with the uncomfortable without acting up upon asking for reassurance so that’s what I did. I saw with the uncomfortable and you know what I made it worse the anxiety, but I made it through which I noticed it’s not bad.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5d

@Jailyn.h1 I know what you mean, exposure response prevention is pretty confusing, and that can make things even more difficult. Do you have an OCD therapist that's helping you with exposure response prevention?

Jailyn.h1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5d

@Anonymous Yes i do actually i just have a hard time maintaining erp whenever i feel anxious

Anonymous

Date posted: 3d

@Jailyn.h1 I understand, ERP is difficult, and I have trouble with it too. Have you told your therapist that you've been having trouble maintaining ERP?

Jailyn.h1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous Yeah, I have told him a few times and then there’s some days where I work well with ERP and there’s some days I don’t and he has told me to continue to work on it despite the discomfort

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@Jailyn.h1 I see. Yeah, I also have some days where I work well with ERP and some days where I don't. I think that continuing ERP is good to do even on days where I don't work well with it, it's good to practice doing ERP. And I also don't think we should worry about if we do ERP well enough either, because I don't think ERP is about how well we do it, I think ERP is more of a journey and a learning experience, and that we learn each time we do ERP. So even if it seems like ERP isn't helping on a certain day, it doesn't mean that the time spent doing ERP is wasted. I tend to spend less time doing ERP on those days where I don't work well with it so I can take sort of a mini break and not stress myself, but I still do ERP on those days so I can get practice in and keep up the habit of doing ERP. Did your therapist recommend anything for days where you don't work well with ERP?

Jailyn.h1

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23h

@Anonymous So I haven’t talked to him about some ways where I don’t work well with ERP, but I have talked to him about days where I can do ERP like, for example not using the blood pressure as much like for example if I made it in the middle of an anxiety episode get shakey I feel like my hands aren’t there. I weigh it out like today. I had one episode in the car where I felt anxious and I didn’t have a blood pressure machine right beside me. It was actually at home and I just waited out felt really uncomfortable to be honest cause I thought there was something wrong and I have health anxiety based around my heart so yeah, I just sat down and waited out

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

@Jailyn.h1 I know that OCD about health is really tough... And you said you were just recently worrying about health concerns? Would you like to tell me how that went?

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