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@Givenup Why would they block you ??

@Tiredoflife I told them I have POCD and real events OCD based on horrible POCD events... and that they can look at my previous posts... I waited for a response but when they saw my posts they blocked me... I feel genuinely so alone and in a state of just... melancholy... because if even people who have OCD block me... then it makes me feel like everything my POCD and real events OCD have been saying about me is true...

@Givenup I just skimmed through one of your posts bc I don’t want to trigger myself .. not gonna give you reassurance but I’m sure you’re not alone . I feel like mine are way worse .🫩

@Tiredoflife I understand... you don't have to vent if you don't want to... the fact I have been blocked makes me scared to even reach out to anyone with POCD because I feel like I'll just be blocked any minute now...

@Givenup I didn’t know there was an option to block people on here tbh .

@Tiredoflife Yeah... there is... its been honestly a rough couple of years for me...

@Givenup But the one post I did skim through , I went through something very very similar !!! I already posted about it like 30 times a few weeks ago and now my ocd keeps latching on to more similar stuff o guess :( awful cycle

@Givenup I don’t advise you to look through my posts bc it will probably trigger you . But I hope you find peace one day

@Tiredoflife I just hope someone finds the time to respond... I genuinely feel so lost right now... UPDATE: My ex and I broke up nearly 3 weeks ago... so... the girlfriend thing is outdated... and I'm so exhausted... plus I got assaulted at my job as a caretaker by a member, my supervisor wants to fire me and constantly talks behind my back, and i have no one close who i can talk to... today I turned in my notice... my supervisor said "fantastic" and "talk to you later" in a clearly sarcastic and vindictive manner... im struggling with a lot... yesterday was my last day... and... everything feels... just... wrong... With my harm ocd hitting full swing... i find myself triggered by my pocd again... and i feel like a horrible person... i tried not to post... i tried to do what people told me... but right now i feel absolutely horrible... I genuinely feel so guilty... I cant handle the anxiety... Im doing horribly right now because I feel so so guilty about this... Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p3dophilic activity and inappropriately abusing and inappropriately messaging women and minors and abusing others and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... and that I'll be cancelled and arrested later in life because of all of this... I have genuinely never felt more alone in my life than this particular moment right here... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... (the 18+ HOCD situations were about 18+ graphic HOCD situations that triggered me immensely...) When I was 19, in an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... The 14-15 year old said she was uncomfortable the first time and i tried to stop venting to her... after she said i was a bad person because of politics... I vented to her a second time because her saying i was a bad person triggered me... she said she was uncomfortable for the second time and then i blocked her... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I'm so genuinely triggered... I don't want to be a P or a MAP or a groomer or a bad person... I wanna be a good person who does good things for other people... I dont want to be arrested for any crimes... I just want to be a good person who helps people in the medical field... I only want to help others... the last thing I want is to commit any form of harm towards kids or teens in any way... 😭😭😭 And I keep getting intrusive thoughts of calling the 14-15 year old "cute" with her saying "thanks" on text... I genuinely find this so awful and disgusting...

@Givenup This was the post I read from you . As someone thats been seeking reassurance everyday for the past 2 months and posting back to back ; I advise you to stop seeking reassurance for your own good . I wish I could follow my own advice though lol .do you have a therapist?

@Givenup Also if it makes you feel any better , I find that the app hides some of my posts when I post about it more than once or twice :/ . Bc some ppl can’t find my posts . Idk why