Antibiotics are making me spiral

I was using intrusive imagery of me peeing out my uti germs to my advantage and being like heck yeah im getting better but tonight I am peeing much less despite drinking a lot of water and the water feels like its not going to my bladder and its freaking me out because i cant pee out this UTI. Plus the burning sensation is back. I feel super irritable and emotional and can’t stop crying. I had a long day cleaning my fridge and working, and then cooking dinner, so i might just be tired but i feel so upset nothing is going the way i want it to!!! I just wanna feel better! I want to be cured and i want to be back to my happy self!!!

Givenup

Date posted: Yesterday

I understand your pain and struggles... I'm sorry you're dealing with this...

TheObsessive...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Givenup Im sorry for ranting, i hope you are doing okay as well

Givenup

Date posted: Yesterday

@TheObsessiveCompulsiveL Trust me I understand... I have POCD and real events OCD... I deal with constant guilt and shame and anxiety every single day... without any breaks... someone on here also blocked me too which really didn't help with my anxiety and OCD... you aren't alone in your pain...

Givenup

Date posted: Yesterday

@TheObsessiveCompulsiveL Your ranting is completely fine! Its okay! You're going through a very hard time right now! Thats not something that anyone has the right to criticize or judge you for! Especially coming from me!

TheObsessive...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Givenup POCD is a hard one, im sorry youre going through that! It really makes you feel like anything you do is wrong and I find it so crazy how OCD is able to convince us of stuff so much. Im sorry to hear you got blocked, people are usually understanding but sometimes theres a person who just doesn’t get it.

Givenup

Date posted: Yesterday

@TheObsessiveCompulsiveL Trust me... thats why I want to be a psychiatrist... so that I can show people the love and acceptance they deserve... that they are not the monster OCD tells them they are..:

TheObsessive...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Givenup I appreciate that! Thats very kind! Thank you! I am trying my best to continue to sit with this, it’s super hard. I’m just ready for this infection to be over and to be back to normal. I feel like ever since I got this UTI, I have been hyper aware of how particular and control freaky Ive been. It feels so frustrating, since usually I can at least try to talk myself down. But this past week its just been the harshest black and white thinking, with an added emphasis on like everything being perfect… Maybe I am dealing with some Just Right 😂

TheObsessive...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Givenup Thats amazing!! I bet you will be fantastic at it! My therapist made me feel very seen and its so important so I am happy to hear that you’re going to put more understanding into the world!

Givenup

Date posted: Yesterday

@TheObsessiveCompulsiveL If you want you can read my posts... but I'm honestly scared you'll block me too...

TheObsessive...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 17h

@Givenup I wouldnt! Im sorry youre going through all of that. I think sometimes our brains love to hang onto things that we did in the past, and try to pin it on us. I hate when that happens

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