Christianity and ocd

I pray about the same spirals and sins and what if thoughts everyday all the way down the loop hole and nothing is changing and I feel the same everyday so I’m worried there’s something I’m not doing to have God help me. Or I don’t think he can change me I want to be transformed but am worried I’m not putting enough effort. I don’t want to be stuck in the same cycles. Then I will read ocd related things and scripture to help and feel better but then when I read something scary or truthful I’ll spiral again but I can just read feel good scripture or ocd books. Cuz then it’s not trusting God enough to heal. Does anyone feel this way? Then feel like I’m running back to comfort cuz my ocd is like don’t do this!! So then I want to do it to relive it but maybe I’m actually not supposed to do it then I’m giving into my flesh and not actually doing “erp” and what if I’m not finding true satisfaction in Jesus and looking in the world to satisfy me but that’s fleeting. How Can I just enjoy his presence and not fear him in a bad way. My mind is non stop thinking 24/7 even when I’m distracted or doing fun things it’s always there

DK27

Date posted: Yesterday

Mark DeJesus has really helpful videos on scrupulosity. I would recommend looking his stuff up. He's helped me a lot.

CrappiePappy

Date posted: Yesterday

@DK27 Yes, Mark De Jesus really helped me a lot

Anderson#2018

Date posted: Yesterday

I struggled with religious ocd for a very long time, now I’m not religious anymore but I’m going to appeal to you like someone who is. My biggest ocd fear was “what if I’m not saved?” Because I believed at the time that a person needed to be saved so they didn’t burn in hell, and then be cast into the lake of fire for all eternity. I had to practice ERP in when ocd would bring up “what if I’m not saved” I would then respond like yup maybe I’m not, maybe I will go to hell, maybe maybe not. This is terrifying in the beginning but ERP is the way out of the loop, and if God knows the mind was corrupted by sin, then he knows why you are telling the OCD the non engagement response, he gave man the ability to find treatment for ocd and lots of other illnesses. I also put a graphic picture of hell or maybe it was the lake of fire, so that when I turned on my phone screen I was continually confronted with this. So whatever your doubt is, maybe it’s certain sins, lean into the ERP.

Mishti

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi, I’m going through something similar so I don’t really have much good advice but I just wanted to let you know that I’m so proud of you for reaching out for help! I hope that things get better and I’ll be praying for you.

CaspersKeeper

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi I was religious and no longer am- but I think it might be helpful for you to be reminded that you are not your thoughts. You don’t really have control over your thoughts. God created you and you have OCD. Having ocd isn’t a choice or a moral failure on your part- it just is. Somethings are just like that- like being chronically ill. Some days ocd will be manageable for you and some days it won’t and that is just how it is- it isn’t because you did something wrong or didn’t do something correctly

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