Fear that I'm making up that I have OCD?

I think sometimes I feel like I'm not real because all of the sudden I become hyper aware of myself and my mind says you are Teresa you are alive you are thinking these thoughts right now.

Yes I’ve dealt with this before. I’ve felt the whole imposter syndrome and that I didn’t really have OCD and was making it up the whole time. I remember crying and talking with my therapist about it because I felt so bad and I was told it’s something people with OCD experience fairly often. I still have those intrusive thoughts sometimes but I know it’s just my OCD making me think that way. It’s frustrating but you can get through it!

This has been one of the most consistent intrusive thoughts I have struggled with. When I am in the middle of a bad bout of intrusive thoughts, I'm feeling overwhelmed, and I get a thought that I should reach out to my partner or some other supportive person for help the thoughts immediately turn on this. They claim that I'm making it all up for attention, that it's just me being overdramatic, that everyone else manages to get along with life just fine. You're not alone in feeling like this or that reaction to seeking help. That resistance you feel does not mean you're being overdramatic or imaging your OCD, and it is good that you are seeking help for it. It's just one of those uncomfortable thoughts we need to learn to ride through.

I believe this falls into "Meta OCD", and, yes, it can be extremely destabilizing in my experience. I'm sending you support !

So having the epiphany that your really a real person breathing and alive as though you weren't certain of it just the minute before is a specific sort of ocd?

Even though I wasn't aware that I wasn't sure of my actual being being real.

yes im having such an issue worrying i cheated on a night out. and im scared i’m making it up to feel better about cheating

I'm good at riding this one because I'm obviously me and real and alive so I just breathe. I think I used to get blackouts where I was awake could hear everything but my vision was that of a tv with static playing and I've reasoned my brain just needed more oxygen so I would deep breath through the blackout or seizure or whatever until my vision returned which was always pretty quick. I did it driving n was ok but I smoke and did burn myself pretty good once because you sorta go rigid like a seizure the vision is the worst n scariest part. This hasn't happened in 20 yrs though. I figure this little am I me trip in the brain must be helped by the introduction of extra oxygen wherever it's tripping up there so I breath n it kinda feels neat knowing just how real I am it's a cool trip.is all I'm saying

It might not be cool if I took the doubt route where I've decided I'm not real. That would probably be bad.