my ocd is so mentally draining and exhausting, all the rituals and intrusive thoughts are driving me crazy..

Hello everyone I am new here!! My name is Brittany and I have had OCD since I could think, I have intrusive thoughts and I have to do certain rituals daily or I feel like something bad will happen to my loved ones, my rituals are I have to touch certain things around my house, and when I work out I have to do the workouts until they feel right and it gets so exhausting and I feel like if I miss a day of working out I will lose everything I've worked for and I been working out for like four years...I just care about my loved ones so much and I feel like I can prevent something bad from happening to them if I do it, I know its the ocd talking but in my brain that's what I think..I also hate hair I have two dogs and they get hair places and if it gets on my clothes or bed I can't stand it so I have to dust it off or get it completely off my clothes before I can think right again, idk what to do anymore and it would be so nice to have people to talk to who are going through the something Im going through people who understand the mental exhaustion this causes, I'm always tired and know its from this..also I am always worried there is something wrong with me so I'm constantly googling my symptoms and I think it all boils down to my ocd and the anxiety it cause so it makes my body stay in fight or flight mode...

alex0523

Date posted: 17h

Wow thanks I didn’t know they do that

alex0523

Date posted: Yesterday

Wow I relate to much ! I act out on so many compulsions to stop bad things from Happening I’ll turn my car around I’ll walk past a certain spot over and over I’ll count and count and it’s got to the point I can’t do it anymore I’m having a mental breakdown bc my mind and body are so exhausted I’m out in public reading and counting numbers I’m rechecking everything

alex0523

Date posted: Yesterday

And it made me physically ill I was in the hospital last year because I got all sick and put myself in a gastritis flare up from stress that it physically made my body sick it’s from the stress your putting on your body

alex0523

Date posted: Yesterday

It’s so exhusting that sometimes I have to get in bed and shut all the lights and just sit there because I can’t shut off my brain

alex0523

Date posted: Yesterday

I relate so much . Are you on any medication or in therapy

Tea and Honey

Date posted: Yesterday

@alex0523 I am so so sorry to have been suffering so much. Have you had any success with ERP?

alex0523

Date posted: 23h

@Tea and Honey I haven’t yet no I have to find a dr near me that does that

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 22h

@alex0523 NOCD is a great place to get ERP therapy!! They do everything over Zoom, and all their therapists are trained in ERP. I'm going to give you a link to them:):):) I have used NOCD twice. I got a solid training in ERP from them. It was just a co-pay per session. https://home.treatmyocd.com/calendar

alex0523

Date posted: 17h

@Tea and Honey I just booked a free call I don’t know who it’s going to be with but I Hope they find somone who can do erp

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 16h

@alex0523

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 16h

@alex0523 I'm super glad you are taking this step!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They are really nice at NOCD. I've been communicating with them for years. I can text them any time, and they always text back. I'm proud of you for taking this step!!! :)

alex0523

Date posted: 15h

@Tea and Honey Thank u so much

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