Bitterness

Agreed as someone who’s been struggling with this since a kid it literally feels like hell on earth. There are periods in my life where I cry wondering why this had to happen to me especially when i’m around people and they talk about how well their mental health is. But i’ve been trying to think positively that soon i’ll get help and be able to live a normal life maybe not completely but still i’m very hopeful 🙂‍↕️

I don’t know who you are, what you’ve been through, and what you’re going through right now, it’s okay to be bitter, to wish things were different. To want a different brain for yourself, and right now it feels like you’re in the thickest of the fog that smothers you and you can’t catch a breath of air. The fact that you’re being open about how you’re feeling is empowering to me, because I’ve been feeling the same way. Maybe we are tortured by our own thoughts, and you know what, we have to do everything on hard mode and it’s soooo exhausting. I’ve been sad from the minute I can remember popping into consciousness and it’s just… heartbreaking, my heart hurts for my whole life, for your life and how you feel. Aside from all of the despair and torment , there’s also a sort of wisdom that comes from people with OCD. Because we experience our emotions deeply, sometimes quite literally having to grieve people who are alive, our perspective is our power. Your words matter, what you say to others, to yourself. I guess the whole point is just keep holding on, talk to the people you care about, lean on your friends, your family members, create art, make music, find hobbies to dig into that quiet the pain even if it’s just for a moment. You, who feels this deeply NEEDS to express yourself. Make the pain and the torture tangible and worth it, because it might just be beautiful, or exhilarating, or even exciting. You are important and you matter, more than you know ❤️ keep your chin up, you got this

I relate to nearly every word. I'm sad that you and I and so many others have to deal with our OCD sucking the joy out of our lives. I'm just trying my best to break through to the other side of it all through ERP and self help strategies. I want more good days and more normality! I hope all of us feel better soon!

Hi dude, have you heard about Ali Greymond? I don’t think she has the qualifications but I find her videos quite useful

i feel that. mine started after a drunk night and it hasnt given me w rest at all

I felt all your feelings a month ago. After a month of ERP and some medication shifts I don’t feel that way anymore. It gets better. You’ll have to manage this forever which is definitely unfair, but it does get better. Source: 30-years past my first diagnosis.