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It’s called being queer and homophobic at the same time!!! Where did you learn attraction to women was gross?

This isn't meant to be reassurance, but I have heard that many straight women watch lesbian porn.

If you're not attracted to the women themselves then you don't have to worry about anything. A lot of straight women watch lesbian porn because it tends to be more emotionally-charged and less violent than straight porn (which is pretty gross that that's the standard, but whatever.) I would recommend you try reading heterosexual erotica instead- it'll feel more emotional and have more depth to it, which is what most straight women who watch that kind of stuff are seeking out.

there is nothing to tell him or be ashamed of, you could be bisexual or not, but if you are good in your relationship there is no need to figure that out yet. it could come a day where you are single and want to explore it but for now i dont see how it affects your relationship as long as you are good with him. now i will tell you from my expirience that i used to watch lesbian p*rn and i also said that i could never “have s3x with a woman and very much less being in a relationship”, now i am a lesbian haha and it all makes sense.(doesnt have to be your case) in my case i have intrusive thoughts like what if i do like men as i am not a real lesbian, but honestly i Know fr that i dont you can get intrusive thougts and it means nothing but i think the anwser is what they make you feel.

also if you are grossed out by the thought i dont think you like woman, but let me tell you that a lot of us are homophobic, not with others but ourselves, without realizing it