I fear that I have commited the unpardonable sin

I think and feel I have commited the unpardonable sin of blasphemy and I am going to hell because I have constant intrusive thoughts that I don’t like having including Jesus is the antichrist and Jesus is the devil and pray to the devil and serve satan and constant what if thoughts about almost everything,I have chronic anxiety paired with severe adhd and it feels like ocd in my head,it is literal hell,every time I do exposure response prevention my mind jumps topics it will go from what if I didn’t commit the unpardonable sin to what if I did and then it will jump to whys and hows and the doubt,confusion,uncertainty,anxiety and torture from it is so unbearable,and when I do expose myself to the fears sometimes it doesn’t even do anything and I don’t feel as fearful but then sometimes I do feel just as fearful as I did before,any help would be greatly appreciated,I am a true Christian and I love the Lord Jesus Christ but I would love to know how I can get through this endless torture of doubt fear confusion and uncertainty so I can get my faith back because this junk is really putting a whipping on my faith and I hate it so bad because I’m trying my best to have faith in Christ but the doubt fear confusion and uncertainty are louder than my faith.

danny02

Date posted: 2d

I’m catholic and I have these thoughts but I don’t feel guilty about them because I have no control over what thought pops into my head. I only have control over what I do with them. Why would you beat yourself up about somthing you have no control over. If we had control over thoughts and feelings we would never have bad ones because we could choose what materialises up in that brain. Our brains are always thinking even in our sleep. Yours is loud because you percieve them as threats. Just leave it alone as well as the uncertainty around them and the discomfort it brings. I hope what I told you has let you loosen up a bit. Lots of love friend

JeffreyN0thing

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

Oh babe. I’ve been there. I had some major religious OCD earlier in my life. Went through a TON of this sort of thinking—worrying that I’d blasphemed God, or that I wasn’t going to Heaven because of little things like going 57mph in a 55 zone. The truth is… for me? It didn’t stop until I got on meds consistently and worked with a therapist on CBT and ERP. It also helped to face some of my fears. Like the fear of going to Hell. One of the books I read is “Heaven & Hell: A History of the Afterlife” by Bart D Ehrman. After I finished reading it, I felt like I could finally release my fear of the afterlife. Highly recommend!

danny02

Date posted: 2d

Also if your fear is you will go to hell for these thoughts I would use that as an exposure. Maybe you will 🤷‍♂️ impossible to know. But on the flip side a loving god who created you knows they are out of your control. So that’s all you got.

Cher54

Date posted: 13h

Years ago, I felt the same way, I thought I had committed the unpardonable sin too. I remember writing to some Christian organization, I don’t remember what it was now, I wrote to them about what I was concerned about and they wrote me back. This was years and years ago and I can’t even remember what the papers said explaining it. But I do know now what it means. The thing you have to remember is if you are a Christian, you cannot commit the unpardonable sin. You are sealed by the Holy Spirit and you cannot become unsealed. This is only for unbelievers who never come to know Christ as their Saviour. There is a lot of things in the Bible that seems scary and us ocd’ers can really latch onto those things and it consumes our whole mind. Just remember, Jesus is full of grace, mercy and forgiveness and He only wants the best for us because he loves us. But Satan is always around the corner, watching us and trying to get us all twisted up in our thinking. Stand firm and put on the whole armor of God. I’m speaking to myself as well. I hope I said something that encourages you.❤️

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