Religious ocd

I know I should spend time in Gods word to get answers but I worry so much every second. Then I feel like oh Gods got me and see something comfortable but then I feel like I’m running away from conviction when I spiral cuz I feel like everything is bad and then will see something and then it must be confirmation abt that certain topic and then my brain wants to like refuse it and be like that’s not true or whatever. Like the truth should set us free even if it’s hard it should cost us something or I will ignore it and feel anxious cuz if I’m being disobedient and that’s why I’m the back of my mind I feel guilty cuz it actually is wrong but I want to erp cuz my mind tells me not to. Then I will try and forget abt it and be okay then bam hit with a spiral and then don’t be deliberately keep on sinning or following my own desires. Like we should suffer for God cuz it’s not about us

ezzieorsomet...

Date posted: Yesterday

Hey, I've noticed your posts coming up recently. You are seeking certainty/reassurance about what God might want from you, which is a fraught topic. No one can tell you for sure what is the correct way to follow Him. I think you might really need to speak to someone in order to help separate your fear from religion. and this is coming from someone who also has suffered with religious OCD and fears of not doing the right thing. When I was eight, I used to stay up all night, praying in order to make sure I did not do the wrong thing. but here is the thing Religion and following Jesus can exist without this level of guilt. I personally don't worry about sin, as that wasn't really part of Jesus' teachings. Sin is not a universal thing--it is something that is focused on in certain sects of Christianity but all. I would suggest speaking to a councilor, therapist or someone that can help you unravel these spirals as they are really intense. I wish you the best of luck.

G C

Date posted: Yesterday

@ezzieorsomething Yeah I want some help but then I feel like I’m using whoever it is for help instead of God cuz only God knows

ezzieorsomet...

Date posted: 13h

@G C I get where you are coming from. but that is the OCD and doubt speaking for you. OCD makes it so there is no satisfying answer, that constantly have to prove your own feelings and it likely fixated on religion because it is important to you. Perhaps God only knows, but in order for you to feel at peace, i do really recommend reaching out for help. it is scary, but I believe your faith and life would be better for it.

Ajquint

Date posted: Yesterday

I actually used to struggle with this, and what helped me is that I learned to be okay with no longer believing in any religion because the fear was hurting me too much. I know that can be pretty difficult and scary to try, so I don’t want to enforce it upon you, just sharing my experience. If you want though, I can explain the existential thoughts and beliefs I have now in order to potentially help with being more comfortable dropping religion

Ajquint

Date posted: Yesterday

@Ajquint And also, God would be unjust to judge you divinely for a disorder that you don’t have control over. Our thoughts and decisions are not really our fault as much as we think they are cosmically. They only matter relative to other humans and shouldn’t dictate any eternal punishment.

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