Is it weird?

Hey everyone, I'm a 40yo single father of 2 teenage men ( soon to be 20yo and a 18yo ) my oldest son have blessed me w/ a granddaughter. And honestly since my boys have gotten older and there own lives, I've been so lost. My grand baby is the closest thing to me having another kid. I see her 3 to 4 days a week but when she leaves I'm lost all over again and have no idea what to do w/ myself. She reminds me so much of her dad it's scary at times, the little princess has stolen my heart 😢 and I can't help but notice how my depression takes over when she leaves! My kids have always been my life and now that they're adults I have no idea what to do with myself. I feel lost and confused on where my life is going. I've been unable to work for the last years and 10 months but when she came last September a new life flashed before my eyes and I saw a new path for me. My separation anxiety is also triggered by her absence and I can't figure out how to move forward without having someone else to take care of. As a grown man is this something negative or because I'm lonely I cling to things and people to fill whatever it is I'm lacking? I honestly feel a obligation to protect her as if my son wouldn't and I can't help feeling like this. I know the world is dangerous and my kids also give me this same anxiety but I can't talk to them about this stuff because they already know. And I dont want to come off being overly emotionally and sensitive because it brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I love so hard and w/ all my heart, I get emotional. Any way my life has fallen apart at the seams after losing my job and my health in 2024. I only wish to gain my health back and a job to afford everything I've worked to obtain these last 6 years. I lack direction and that's the absolute worst feeling as a man. To be lost without direction has broken me down to this emotional man who's easily effected by his surroundings. Any and all feedback is appreciated greatly, I've overcome so much before and pray to overcome whatever this is keeping my down. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference 🧎🏾‍♂️🙌🏾 Amen⁉️

mjr-rust

Date posted: 9h

We all look for people to spend time with and care for no matter our position in life because we're human! It's in our nature, and I can tell you you're definitely not alone :) You sound like a very loving man and that is nothing to be ashamed of. Understandably though, it can get to be a lot when you don't always have the people around you that fulfill you. I imagine struggling with your health and not having your job any longer doesn't make that any easier. Hobbies are always a good thing to have, and even if you already have some I always encourage myself and others to try new ones, but have you ever considered volunteering? Helping others is definitely one way to find that fulfillment. If your health allows, that is. Or even just attending events to connect with others if the place you live has any could be a good idea.

Ambitious1

Date posted: 8h

Thank you for the support, I sincerely appreciate it!

lynlynn

Date posted: 7h

I don’t think that how you’re feeling is negative or weird at all. I think that you had children at a very young age and that’s what you built your life upon! something that can ground you is that she’s granddaughter and she will always love you and cherish you just as much as you cherish her. I also think that there is the stigma around men that makes them feel bad for being sensitive to certain topics when its a completely normal & human emotion. i would love to know someone loved me as much as you love your children, but i’d appreciate it even more if said person put effort into getting better for themselves, which is exactly what youre doing by asking for advice :))

Ambitious1

Date posted: 8m

Good morning, thank you for the support. I appreciate it.

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