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- Yesterday
Harm/responsibility ocd
I’ve recently been diagnosed with OCD and experience a few sub categories. Harm and responsibility are the biggest. For example, I worry that something bad is going to happen to my house that is going to be catastrophic. Like, so bad that it causes us to be bankrupt and homeless. This week I was outside in the middle of a storm vacuuming water because I was terrified of water seeping in through the walls and damaging the foundation. I checked the basement upwards of 20 times. I check my roof everytime wind blows. I look for leaks of it rains. I catch myself listening to the walls trying to find the source of little creaking noises. I worry about something happening to me and my daughter not having a mother. I worry that I will do something irresponsible and harm will come to my daughter (such as taking her on vacation to somewhere unsafe, getting in a car accident) Heck I worry that I will leave something on the counter that my dog will eat that will cause harm. To the point that I check the counters multiple times before leaving and will have to turn around to do it again if I question if I checked properly. It’s exhausting. I believe I have had some form of ocd my entire life but it was labeled as anxiety. I was on an anti depressant that I have come off of, which I believe has exacerbated my symptoms. I am just about 3 years postpartum, and have noticed mental health changes with that as well. I’m in therapy, very early in my journey. If anyone has any books/podcasts/suggestions for coping, I would love to hear them.