bad day

today was a really exhausting day especially mentally, it started off pretty good but then it just started to hit me randomly throughout the day and my mood became more and more down and outright grumpy to everyone around me but to me it was extreme frustration and there was nothing i could do about it because i just wanted to clean what i needed to clean, shower, and go to bed. i was triggered though, by something specific so i know where the panic and anxiety came from but it's so exhausting and i'm really really sick of it and the fact that nobody i know can help me because it isn't possible for them to understand the extent of it and pass the stereotypes of OCD but also the frustration that the person i need the most can't understand or even realise that there's something genuinely wrong with me and as much as i want to talk to her, it's really difficult for me and i'm not sure why because i can talk about it to my friends and i suppose on here too but idk and im sat here ranting now with a headache from crying and that's probably tmi but yeah it makes me feel a lot better being able get out everything i can't say in real life, especially anonymously to strangers online who actually do understand the fear and anxiety as it makes me feel slightly less alone although i don't wish this burden on anyone as it's truly a long nightmare that just keeps coming back. i apologise to anyone reading this with how long it is (you wouldn't believe the amount compulsions i experienced throughout this or maybe you do) anyways im probably gonna go watch law and order: svu (my favourite show ever) and i hope everything is going well for anyone reading this and that this makes you feel less alone hopefully <3.

Orca Lover

Date posted: 14h

You aren’t alone. We’re all on this OCD train together.

kikixo

Date posted: 13h

thank you so much, i appreciate this so much and i hope your day is going well :)

apricotallie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13h

i think a lot of us are having an OCD day today, i know i am. i used to also think, if people can't relate, they can't understand. but that's not true, if you have empathetic people in your life, just letting them know you struggled today and that you need some care, always helps me. great idea with watching your favorite show today. i did the same thing, i took a nap and now that im awake im telling myself how brave i am, and kissing myself in the mirror, sounds silly but it helps. i'm eating my favorite foods, and when my boyfriend comes home i'm gonna ask him for a lot of cuddles. 💕 you can do this. you're on the right track and not alone!

Estelle_11

Date posted: 10h

@apricotallie Yes

kikixo

Date posted: 1m

thank you so much, i really appreciate this and i hope the next day is better :)

ezzieorsomet...

Date posted: 14h

Sorry, your day is going so rough. Let me say I have gone through similar days where you just can't get anything done, it's so frustrating and easy to blame ourselves. crying all day sucks ugghh makes your head feel so gross and almost sick like when you've been triggered into a spiral. Also, I love law and order: svu :) I could watch it all day. I hope venting has helped you a little and a wish you a better rest of your day!

kikixo

Date posted: 13h

thank you so much, i appreciate this so much and law and order: svu is really good !! hope your day is going well :)

Estelle_11

Date posted: 10h

Same thing happened to me! I woke up and I’m like ok, you’re doing well. Then as the afternoon went on I got weird and crabby and panicky, my uncle was helping me with something and I kept yelling at him then apologizing.

kikixo

Date posted: 16s

thank you so much, it truly helps hearing that people can relate and i hope tomorrow is a better day :)

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