Bassfishing
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Shame
Having shame from my OCD thoughts has become terrible and I’m not sure how not to
Michael NMichael N
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I have struggled with shame over my intrusive thoughts for a long time — especially in instances where I have actually acted on them in some way. Makes me feel like a lowlife, a despicable person with no moral standards. But, that’s just what my lying OCD wants me to believe. If I buy into it, then I’m likely to give into my compulsive behaviors, and I’m right back on the hamster wheel that’s spinning my life into tatters. So, we must pause and remind ourselves that we only get these intense intrusive thoughts because we actually DO have rather high moral standards — that’s what OCD is deliberately attacking. Maybe we’re not perfect angels, but we’re certainly not perfect monsters. Give yourself that grace. You are good and deserving of love!
Cher54Cher54
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@Michael N I can relate so much to all of what u said. I was thinking today how much of ocd is just satans way of attacking us. I guess it’s both. He uses it to deceive us and makes us doubt and tempt us. He’s a liar. But even knowing that and knowing the things I’ve done or haven’t done doesn’t bring me comfort. I just have been so so depressed for a long time.
Michael NMichael N
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@Cher54 I choose to believe that God loves us unconditionally, understands and forgives all my faults. He has “gifted” me with OCD - not as a punishment or test, but as a superpower. I think we with OCD actually possess more self-awareness than most other people. We can use that for good most of the time. So - why worry about my intrusive thoughts or potential responses at all; why let it make me spiral into depression. We are already loved as sons and daughters of God - and nothing can change or take that away! Be well!
Cher54Cher54
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@Michael N I agree with you except I don’t see this as a gift but as a curse. I know we live in a fallen world that is tainted with sin, but all of this just makes me not like myself at all. It just sucks the joy of life right out of you. But I really admire your good attitude about it all. I wished I felt that way.
Cher54Cher54
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@Cher54 The guilt and regret is just overwhelming and I can’t move forward. Please pray for me. ❤️🙏🏻
Michael NMichael N
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@Cher54 We can pray for one another! While I may have a positive attitude today, I can swing to the opposite pole in an instant! I so understand you.
Cher54Cher54
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@Michael N I’m glad somebody does. This is the way I feel… I know that Satan is out to steal, kill and destroy and I feel like he has done that to me. He has stole precious moments that should have been, he has tried to literally kill me and definitely destroyed the joy of living. Everything good that has happened in my life has been marred by my OCD, anxiety and depression, but mostly the OCD and all the meds I have tried has been awful in itself. I’ve cried until I don’t see how I have any tears left. I’m not young anymore and that bothers me too. I’m sorry I’m so negative, I can’t talk about this to my husband. He just doesn’t understand. I will definitely pray for u as well and everyone on here. I didn’t even pray like I normally do yesterday I was so upset.
Michael NMichael N
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Maybe try using Jesus’ own command: “Get thee behind me, Satan!” In my experience, the best way to dispel a demon is not to believe in him at all. When we refuse to believe in demons, they eventually cease to exist to us — just as prophets gave always dispelled them. Hope that might help.
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