False memory ocd around child sexual abuse

I was molested as a child by my grandfather and I’m about to start therapy for it. My therapist recommended EMDR therapy where they can pull out ptsd and trauma that you have hidden back in your subconscious so you “don’t have to deal with it”. Maybe that’s something you should possibly look into?

I’m so sorry you’re having to go through your thoughts! I’d definitely look into the edmr therapy and see if they can pull out any suppressed thoughts or trauma that you’ve “put away”. This may have actually happened to you! Never discount your gut feeling, Sister!

In general, trauma can be suppressed. I've forgotten almost my entire childhood, including my own incidents of being abused. There are some things I can't remember, but other times I convince myself it was fake or I was overblowing it. Depending on how you are, some trauma can even be stored somatically with no episodic memory at all. It's not unusual to forget a traumatic experience until later in life.

I feel like with false memory is tricky because if there’s doubt whether it happened or not it’s probably false memory. You know when something bad happened in the past, and there’s no doubt about it. Like when you know you broke your arm you might not remember how exactly but you know you did, or when you learn how to ride a bike etc. those are memories that definitely you don’t forget. I read the other comment of the guys saying he did actually got AS etc, he said he knew it happened. So I want say once there’s doubt about something and that inner feeling doesn’t sit right it’s false memory ocd. I’m currently dealing with this, and mine started after seeing a video but the more I separate from my brain the more I realized that inner knowing and memory are 2 different things, you might not remember everything 100% but you do know when events took place. If you know what I mean.