Scrupulosity

I struggle with the same things every day and I pray before I do something like God help me not to fail or whatever and then I feel like I do. I struggle so bad with my eating I want to eat for God and be healthy and then if I eat a certain amount of the same thing then that’s a sin for going over the serving or if I had say bread for a carb and I wanted chips later I already had my carb for the day or if I just have a random snack cuz I don’t need it then it’s just mindlessly snacking and only eating when necessary. Then I had dinner tonight and I was like okay help me have self control and I did. Like I didn’t keep eating after I was full but I was pretty full then was like okay I’m done. But then a little later I was like well I kind of want another bite and I shouldn’t have. Like every day things like that I feel guilty after cuz it was my own desire. Like I didn’t need the extra piece even tho I wanted it. So now I’ve been full and feel like I can’t sleep cuz I ruminate abt this every day. But then I eat healthy but then feel like I over eat when I get full and I hate being full. But then love to eat so then I just try to be strict so that I don’t have to fall in to temptation. Does anyone else struggle with food like that? Then I will see my reels are like how to stop being in the same cycle of sin and what to do if you’re stuck and then I just spiral cuz I just can’t in my brain. Like why does my brain think everything is a sin? It must be If I always feel guilty after

savannahframe19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5d

i feel like OCD likes to latch onto something everytime when u have a relationship with God but we are not perfect knowing how hard it is… bc OCD likes to latch onto things u deeply care about… you are not alone

G C

Date posted: 5d

@savannahframe19 I feel like I should know better tho. Like just cuz I want something doesn’t mean I need it then I’m like oh my ocd tells me I can’t so then I want to but I’m just catering to what my flesh wants

savannahframe19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5d

@G C ik how hard it is… i understand but we cannot be hard on ourselves for that…. the Lord knows we are struggling he wants us to focus on him more than the problem… i am struggling a lot rn with fearing of having seizures…

G C

Date posted: 4d

@savannahframe19 yeah then I always feel guilty everytime I fail but repenting isn’t feeling guilty it’s turning away so I feel beat and just embarrassed for repenting cuz I keep messing up so that’s my willful fault then I’m like if I over eat then I shouldn’t eat the next day cuz that was so much and I’m still a little full and just cuz it’s normal to eat doesn’t mean I need it just bc it’s breakfast. I just feel unsaved after everytime for lacking self control

savannahframe19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4d

@G C i totally understand… i struggle with lust and i fell into it rlly badly the other night… i promised that night i was gonna stop. but it is not our own strength when we flee from sin it is the Lords strength. the only time i only struggle with lust is during hormones or when i have anxiety… i’ve been having a lot of anxiety recently that is health wise but phillipians 4:6-7 is been what’s keeping me alive from God… im trying to trust him with my heart.. and it’s hard bc i deeply do think the Lord is working it’s just hard bc soooo many thoughts i have and anxieties… especially thinking if i am doing the right things for my relationship with God…

G C

Date posted: 5d

And like I don’t need to eat all the time but I love it but then know that’s a sin to just idolize food so idek how to go about eating and enjoying and fun foods. Cuz if I eat bad then it’s like I’m not honoring my temple but there’s just so much and I hate the feeling of being full but then I did it to me

G C

Date posted: 5d

Then I’m embarrassed telling God the same thing everyday. Like bro?? Just don’t mess up then

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