Hey .. its my first time here

Haiii!!! <3 I’m genuinely so sorry for going through this. I don’t wanna diagnose you but the symptoms you’re describing shows as 100% OCD. And using the internet and documenting yourself and making research can actually help, for me it helped. I’m going to share a bit of my experience. I have OCD for almost 2 years, at first I self-diagnosed myself and I started opening up when my grandma got into the hospital because of intestinal conclusion or I don’t know what its called but she had to do surgery and she was hospitalized for one month and when she got home she was safe but I started crying a lot. And she asked me why I cried I accidentally said that I cried for her and also because of my OCD and she asked me what’s that and why do I think I have this, I tried to explained to her and my dad but they didn’t understand so they took me to a psychologist to get diagnosed and I actually got diagnosed with OCD for real by a real specialist this May but I had it since last May and for one year I didn’t said anything even though I already knew about it and even started practicing ERP and CBT way before getting diagnosed. My psychiatrist suggested me Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and medication such as Fevarine cuz I’m allergic to Zoloft and Gabaram. Now what I suggest and my reccomandations as a fully diagnosed OCD teenager who doesn’t go to therapy and doesn’t take meds like I got recommended. You might ask Can you heal without professional help? Yes, you can… But it takes a long time, you have to be patient because it took me 2 years to get where I am right now. So basically ERP, the gold treatment of therapy is way better than CBT because it can accidentally feed the loop and stronger the cycle. I know its hard but you have to resist compulsions and stay with the discomfort, and when the thoughts appears don’t answer to them or answer with ignorance. Thought I don’t know how to explain since I don’t know you’r OCD type but for my cyberphobia and Surveillance OCD I do this: when I feel like I’m being watched the compulsions are usually to stop using my devices and to search my room for hidden spy devices. Well, I don’t do that, I just keep using my stuff normally and use my room normally. Like right now I have this obsession that someone can see my entire screen but I still use it to type this message to you. And in time the brain learns the pattern and the thought is going to take less time and the anxiety would rise put fall on its own naturally and you will even forget what you were obsessing over. But again, this takes a lot of time and effort and patience… especially on your own, but you won’t be alone because I can help you. Alright lastly witch is not about OCD but even those small little things can help: • Make your bed everyday and keep your room tidy. • Stay hydrated and drink 2L of water daily. • Sleep 7-8 hours per night so you can feel rested ( when you sleep less OCD screams more ). • Try distracting yourself and do activities even talking and reading stories there helps. • Move your body, you don’t have to go to the gym just walking around the house for 10 minutes is enought. • You can talk to me, I’m always there for you. That’s it if you have more questions ask in replies! Baiii Baiii!!! Stay safeee <3

Hello!! Thank you for sharing ur story, it’s hard to share out your thoughts without feeling guilty for it. I’m also struggling with ocd and it’s hard for me to share even with my therapist. Just know that ur not alone and these thoughts aren’t u or predicting the future!!