Need for a chat? Or just help

For the past week my ocd has been telling me that my family logs into my email and everything related to my email my whole life the used my number, name, and email for anything. They know my email and password by heart, I changed the password for my email but I feel like it’s too late because they already went through it, I already have bad ocd that convinces me when I have an intrusive thought it pops up into my head and I write it down in google and it’s always disturbing and nasty thoughts so it’s not like i cant ignore it. I went to the great links of downloading the data but it’s taking too long.

anonymous_pu...

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi! I totally understand you. I didn’t have this happen to me in the exact way you mention, but I had a similar experience with an account compromise: one of my social media accounts got compromised two years ago, and even If i got it back, my mind keeps freaking bout it because there was some sensitive information about me in there. But here’s the thing, we can’t know for sure what they saw or not. Maybe they did, maybe they didn’t. I know that this is super triggering, at least to me, because I can’t control everything and it makes me extremely nervous, but sometimes we just have to sit with uncertainty and try to handle it. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, I’m here if you want to talk xx

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@anonymous_purple💜 Thank you, I’m basically supposed to be sitting with the uncertainty and my bf always tell me to stop asking for help. But right now I feel like I can’t say anything because he’s sleep with a minor cold. I feel like such a bad person and feel like I can’t have anything to myself because how much my family keeps using my information between parents and siblings what makes them think it’s okay for them to do that. Sometimes I didn’t even know until I’m trying to apply for something and they already used my information

anonymous_pu...

Date posted: 23h

@Anonymous Why do you feel like a bad person? Also, now that you changed your password they will no longer have access to your email. But I can totally see why your mind latches onto that.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22h

@anonymous_purple💜 Because of how my disgusting my intrusive thoughts are. It convinces since I think it, it happened. Like I was in a spiral and my bf woke up and I told him, mind you different intrusive thoughts from early it changed themes so he was on the phone with t-mobile told him to mute and he did and I told him the thought but I tried to be discreet as much as possible because I knew my mind would tell me it’s not mute and they could here everything and I’ll be exposed on the internet and my phone will forever hate me

Anonymous

Date posted: 22h

@Anonymous It’s like a complete cycle that I can’t get out of. The therapist I even had on here told me my ocd is so severe that she had to suggest out patient treatment because I needed treatment basically everyday because I wasn’t improving over the months. It’s to the point where I think I’m lying about everything and I’m just a secret horrible person. Everything scares me even myself I’m scared of myself

anonymous_pu...

Date posted: 21h

@Anonymous Oh my, this sounds very very tough :( I’m not sure how to help you, because I don’t even have those answers to myself. All I can offer is support, xx🫂

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