Pls let me know and help me

I have a scrupulousity or religious ocd or salvation ocd and i don’t wanna feel that im alone who dealing with this so pls if you go through as the same thing as me pls let me know.It goes like this I am Christian who has already felt the love of God and accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior.As the time goes years later ocd pops up a little by a little and stress me out a lot.Thoughts just wildly comes to me that are blasphemous thoughts and the worst thing is that i have denied the Gospel and committed the unforgivable sin and it says i am going to end up in hell.It is crazy that i will never deny the precious Gospel and never wanna deny Christ as my Lord and Savior and never will.So when those thoughts pops up i lose my mind and went crazy in my head.So i start doing something compulsively that is confessing That Jesus is my Lord and Savior again and again.Ocd is just sooo stressfully and i am feeling alone like only i am the one who facing it.Even the wrong breathe or a wrong step stops me distorts me.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

Mines started like this with the particular theme. I was able to sit with the uncertainty of this by doing ERP. Now I barely have those thoughts. Now it turned into something worse, I always get thoughts on rather I believe God is real or not. Or that I’m going to not be a Christian any more and serve the world. They feel so real😭 I’ve been working with my therapist on the new ones but they’re still very much there. I know ERP isn’t always about making the thoughts going away, it’s learning to sit with the uncertainty of the thoughts. It definitely can be challenging though

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

Yes. Not to the extent you have dealt with, but waking up every morning afraid to start the day because I'm afraid of what I will do wrong. I was grateful God gave me an encounter that gave me hope the He will never let me go and so far, it's helped me not to be afraid or allow fear to put me in the spiral I used to have of not being saved and not believing in him or making a mistake to take me to Hell. I less and less hold my breath to explore science and question what I don't understand because I realize more and more through His assurance how capable He is of helping me and convincing me of the truth, of His power for me to be captivated by Him vs clenching my teeth towards Him because I'm afraid if I don't. Friend, I pray for reassurance because that's helped me so much and given me so much hope. I remember singing to God because that's my favorite thing to do with Him and said that I guess I will praise you even in Hell, I pray I do if that's where I go. Even though it seemed so twisted to even say that, the peace I felt giving Him something I lived to give resolved my control with things. Can't even say how it helped but it did. And over time I rejected the lie that He's let go of me. I've adopted the faith that He is willing and able to gently lead me to obedience. Still struggling and on this journey, but I pray friend that He'd be so so close to you every day and remind you of His love for you. That it will take you out of fear to faith and empower you.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

I'm still on this OCD journey and just got diagnosed and it's so cool to see I'm not alone. So maybe I don't have the best advice but that's what's helped me with some big things! Now to try therapy 💪🏾!

Thredy

Date posted: 1h

@Anonymous Amen

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