You all should check out this song!

Hello all, I hope you all are doing well wherever you are on you recovery journey. I just listened to the new Gracie Abrams song and it hits really close to home as someone who used to have severe OCD and went through immense (only sometimes successful) efforts to hide it from others. The song is called look at my life and I will signify lyrics that really stand out to me. You should listen to the song at a loud volume and watch the video for the full effect. Gracie Abrams herself has OCD, and has spoken about it in the past, and I believe this song to be about it. I feel after watching this video (and the video to her last song) that she is in a pretty significant OCD episode right now and I really feel bad for her. I can not markup text on this post so I will put this around lyrics that I relate to: **(Lyric I relate to)** Lyrics: Verse 1] How long have I got in the hot light 'til the shine rusts? **(I've been thinking through the hard stuff Over light drugs like every night)** /Full transparency: I, the person making this post, relate to the every night lyric, not the drug one./ No, you don't need to come over **('Cause I'd crowd please and I'm tired)** Slowly morphed into a poser Barely know her anymore [Pre-Chorus] **(Do I look high-functioning or Is my façade crumbling?)** Oh God, don't actually answer me, Caroline [Chorus] **(But, oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night Bawling my eyes out No, but I'm so fine)** Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualizеd Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right [Verse 2] I just got to the party with thе big shots and the Barbies Empty talk and talk and talk until my ears bleed He's holding a pill, he thinks that I should take one But I'll raise him to the whole bunch I'm kidding, God, he thinks I'm stupid What a gut punch, but then we go [Pre-Chorus] **(Downtown, there's no medicine I'd spit out if it promises Slowing down voices Don't want to hear a sound)** [Chorus] **(But, oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night Bawling my eyes out No, but I'm so fine)** Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualized Got what I, what I [Bridge] **(Mm, maybe if I smile enough I'll get away with giving up I'll move across the country just to judge myself, like, just as much As I do when I'm sitting here)** I miss my friends that disappear And haven't seen 'em in a year Oh God, what am I doing here? [Chorus] **(But, oh well, look at my life (Look at my life) Bet you can't tell but it's kind of a bad time A new spiral every night (Every night) Bawling my eyes out No, but I'm so fine)** Yeah, I might just shut up and drive Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights My nightmare actualized Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right [Outro] Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right) I got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right, right) Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right) Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right, right) Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2YSnCqHXMGY&list=RD2YSnCqHXMGY&start_radio=1