Take a victory lap 🏆

I'm proud that I've taken the first step in figuring out that I could use some help and joining NOCD for treatment.

I’ve dealt with some annoying new themes pretty well this week. I also had some good days at work!

Difficult news for my family this week — My ocd is flaring up but I’m noticing it and challenging it more often than not ❤️‍🩹

Was playing a video game with my spouse last night, having a happy great fun time, then hour or two later realized I forgot to hit the record button on my game recording program. Obviously very angry and upset at the loss of recording, but did not have a complete meltdown/breakdown that ruined the evening like i have had before. I could recall in my head most of what happened, visually, verbally, emotionally, physically, ( which normally struggle with the recall and loss of recording thus causing the freakout) but was able to pick up and continue playing the game (and remembered to hit record) and proceeded to have a fun time.

Pushed myself out of my comfort zone!

Noticing how strong I am for experiencing this much stress and still doing all the things I need to do. The horrors persist but so do I.

Have been having a crazy flare up, but instead of continuing to spiral today, and even though it feels crazy uncomfy, I’m choosing to do other things. I’m taking the W

This week was full of triggers to my OCD. However, I caught the compulsions and resisted or delayed them for the most part. ERP is working but it is scary.

undergoing ERP and took a medical board exam practice test that went well!

I feel like Im taking my life back! 🙌🏼

I guess when i changed some ocd rituals to be less then i used to do, I didn't feel that much anxious or nervous I would have before. It was low. I hope I could make the rituals smaller, baby steps ya know

I am exploring the unique types of OCD to find where to apply my efforts in treatment

I'm feeling really awful dealing with the changes caused by menopause and other medical conditions. I'm also dealing with my young adult daughters which can be difficult as well. I'm proud of myself for keeping it together and recognizing my triggers. I'm also realizing that not everything needs to be fixed and perfect. It's ok to not be ok.

I’ve accepted that recovery is not linear, and I’m allowed to heal at my own pace in my own way

I have an interview coming up after having difficulties finding work in my field!

I found a great OCD therapist, started ERP TODAY and already feel a tiny bit of relief from my OCD!!

i had a truly awful meltdown yesterday after some financial triggers and discovering new compulsions but i made it through and was able to happily move on with my day and try a new activity (queer choir) after work!

One of my first weeks without anxiety

I started my NOCD treatment!

I’ve finally come to the conclusion that my compulsions are hindering me and not helping me. I also realize that thoughts or urges are not signs and I’m doing my best to remember that in my hard moments.

I’ve been dealing with depression and today I did like a little self care (exfoliating, face mask) and it felt nice.

Noticed and pulled myself out of several rumination spirals very early!

I’m so proud of my self for calling NOCD

I’m getting better due to ERP and my therapist

I have started documenting my fears, triggers, and compulsions. Difficult work but I know it will be worth it!

It isn’t necessarily about the first reaction to problem. Sometimes the knee jerk response is lousy, but that shouldn’t define me. I used to get stuck in a loop when life would catch me off guard where I would dwell and ruminate about a moment where I didn’t respond like I should have. I didn’t do that this week, I got bombarded with bad circumstances and I kept going without getting caught in a nasty ocd loop. Cause here’s the thing; there are 1440 minutes in a day and I can’t let 1 of them ruin my other 1439. That’s where I’m at today, a bunch of little weekly wins where I didn’t get stuck. It might not seem like a big win, but it really is. Nothing may have changed on the surface but the resilience will take me further down the good path.

My company decided to layoff 4% of the workforce yesterday. I didn’t run to my manager for reassurance like I would have a few weeks ago and kept my anxiety manageable as we waited to see who was staying and who was going AND I kept my job

I’ve been leaning into the uncertainty of ERP hard this week, and I’m beginning to see clinical changes!

First and second therapy session! I’m realistically optimistic! Seeking the uncomfortable to feel a bit more comfortable 😅

Pushed myself to go in a public setting that I know will trigger me…and it did trigger me and I stayed there instead of leaving.

I actually did my exposures outside of sessions

I drove for three hours and only got anxious at the tail end, and that went away after I had some food!

I had a couple of decent days at work this week. Anxiety was riding on the bus, but I was driving.

I had my first two NOCD therapy sessions and im really proud of myself for sticking with it and to go through the ERP process next week 👏🏻 i also challenged myself to be vulnerable with my therapist and i was successfully able to be vulnerable

Started an IOP for OCD and I’m already seeing some improvements

I've dealt with putting my dog down which was very hard for me. But just managed to push through and get stuff done.

I’m researching and applying to jobs in a career I care about.

I kept practicing on the app while on vacation

I'm proud of the fact that I am pushing against OCD. It's a bumpy road, but the scenery is great. I hope I can get even stronger.

Today and yesterday I have had really bad OCD thoughts and I set a 2 minute timer and just sat and noticed the feelings. I have used my therapy appointments because I am ready to kicks OCD's ass!

i’m proud i started therapy again today :)

I’m proud of recognizing my compulsions and completing another therapy session!

First and Second ERP session! First time I’ve ever done it! Had some compulsions come up and I’ll use those “failures” as wins and information for healing.

This is so inspiring to read everything

Used the SOS button on here a couple times and Dr McGrath’s prerecorded videos really helped me calm down even if for a short period of time.

Just living through another week with OCD sometimes feels like a win in and of itself.

Talking about scary and difficult themes with my therapist this week

I joined this place and started making an effort to quiet the thoughts.

I am excited to have conquered most of my PTSD, I still have some bumps in my road but I have made it so far

I took a lot less time to do cleaning tasks!! 😁😁🎉🎉

I’ve gotten through a lot this week and feel like I’ve graduated “college” not having such perfection issues this week.

I'm struggling with checking OCD, but I'm proud that I completed a whole video (at once) without repeating it several times 😊🤍

I did things I could never have done while on vacation this week with my family!

Packed for vacation VERY quick and efficiently

I am still going despite everything 💪

Taking a self care retreat on My own. 💖🌺🌸🌷🪻🪷

I didn’t give up

Instead of ruminating, I phoned a friend and came up with some action plans for my future. Then I asked myself: "have I accomplished anything or am I just scrolling and thinking?" Reminding myself to take action every so often helped me achieve more than I have been. :) Also, in times of worry, I have been asking myself "what can I do today that I have control over?" to avoid spiraling.

It’s lame but I’m proud I went 2 days with compulsively using AI for morality questions n ocd loop

Sundays are the worst for me but today I done pretty good.

Ok. I need to know somehow if this is the space I need to be in. I don’t know base level normal. But yeah racing thoughts, messy place and car, easily distracted etc. I function reasonably well l, but oh man I can tell I’m not well. I just need help. I don’t know what the f to do. F.

Went on two great trips/outings without “planning it perfectly”. Improvised, spur-of-the-moment, imperfect, and very fun.

Got wisdom tooth surgery on Thursday. I’ve been doing pretty well staying away from Google during my recovery and convincing myself I have every complication imaginable. It’s been difficult but I’m proud of myself :)

I’m one step closer to publishing my nail business

I went and did a really hard erp today !