Confessing or tell all

I had always thought this was just how I am as a person..but the more i am thinking about it, and the more i hear other people's stories, the more ive went - ah! This is also ocd showing up in this area. Its not fun having our ocd brains, but atleast were not alone. Fellow ocd sufferer checking in 🫡 im glad I was able to spot that i was gona urgently tell my mental health support things that they dont need to know. Like im an adult...I dont need to tell other adults everything lol Also what i call secrets? Is actually just private and personal stuff. But my brain reframes it as a secret..

@bluerainbow So true. Crazy how OCD makes you think different. But when the clouds lift and you can see things more logically, you’re really thinking, wtf was I thinking?!?! 🤦🏻‍♀️

@Anonymous I think im genuinely and naturally just an honest person. Like ive always been that way from a kid. But then having ocd on top of that, just made things terrible. Totally skewed my thinking and thoughts. And yes, I can think back and cringe at some things ive told people. Not everything is to be shared...and I have terrible boundaries and people pleasing tendencies. I need to remember i dont owe anyone access to my personal private life or thoughts. Id never expect someone else to tell me everything..but we have ocd and its another ocd trait we have to manage best we can. First thing is even recognising your doing it and what's happening. For almost my whole life I just thought my ocd brain and traits was ME

@bluerainbow My over sharing compulsions just started recently. It’s worse when you actually share something and it’s as bad as you think it was so then when the next “secret” comes up you feel like you have to share it too because the other one was obviously important. For me, I’ve always been okay having my private stuff and didn’t think I was doing anything wrong. But I think some of it defiantly needed to come out. Not everything that I’ve confessed for sure. But 50/50. Just have to be better at making better choices and forgive yourself for being human and having basic thoughts and emotions. We can’t control everything. Just our actions and values.

@Anonymous Yeah i agree with everything you said here. We are just humans! Humans with ocd and god knows what else. When i include my other anxiety issues, im surprised ive even made it this far! But I have. We have. So our ways of coping maybe weren't great, but who's is ? We are all just trying to survive best we can. I totally know what you mean about the loop and secrets and sharing something that is actually as bad as you thought it was ! I can remember my ex boyfriend face when i told him something...also probably a real mix of disbelief. I dont think most people tell the 100% truth or everything they think or fear. So when us with our little ocd brains DO tell all or confess, people must be like woah....wtf...that's not something we talk about or say lol

That gets me as well! Same thoughts you have, how do some people live double lives even?! They are like family man or woman and pillar of the community or something, and double life as serial killer and here I am, tossing and turning in my bed, replaying something from several years ago trying to work out if im a good person 🤯 I think its fair to assume we would make the worst serial killers or whatever 😂

@bluerainbow No kidding 😂😂 like call off the killer search 🙋🏻‍♀️ and truthfully I’m not even sure if I did it but I better confess anyways just incase 🫠🫠 Lord Jesus take the wheel.

@Anonymous 😂😂 I know, sometimes I've woken up from dreams and woke up thinking ive actually killed someone because I couldn't make out if it was real or just a dream..and actually seriously wanted to call the police..and confess that ive killed someone and hidden the body..I had this same dream multiple times so I genuinely did wake up believing ive actually done this. Then I started to worry, was this maybe a past life? Did I kill someone during a previous life? Actual serial killers out there just smiling and whistling a tune as they leave the crime scene.. So yeah, even violent DREAMS shake me up haha