I am recovering from a trauma, and what keeps on bothering me, is the feeling of doom along with apathy and sadness, it is a deep feeling, and seems to consume me physically. I want to do things again like before, to go out, go to collage. But any type of sickness seems to paralyse me. Has anyone been able to move on and live again even with your trauma?
I experienced childhood trauma, as well as in adulthood. I was experiencing such a horrible feeling of constant doom and feelings of loneliness. I got myself on medication but also started to do things for myself that made me feel better about myself. I created goals for myself and every day I was making decisions to get me closer to meeting those goals. Some days were hard to get motivated but I realized that every day is a new day to start again. Give yourself grace and remember that you can get through this.
I am healing and doing better, but my trauma is related to me getting sick. I didn't eat, was dehydrated and it was a very hot day, so I had to go to a infirmary in an ambulance, and two days later I skipped breakfast and got bedridden cuz I couldn't eat anything and I just ingested those nutrient loaded liquids they give in hospitals and sell at pharmacies to feed myself. I got better, but the trauma was so deep, that it lead me to develope and ED because I was scared of not eating enough and having to go through it all again. Now I am still afraid, because that feeling was the worst thing ever, it felt like death, I felt like I was dying, and it fills me with dread, my anxiety now feels like true doom.
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