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@anonymous_purple💜 Thank you lovely. How are you doing?

@recoveryisneverlinear Hi there. thanks for asking. I’m feeling really frustrated because of my real event :( can’t move on

@anonymous_purple💜 I hear you. Its super frustrating. Especially if you have moments where you feel better and then it comes back (this happens to me a lot). We gotta keep going though :) it will become easier. Are you in therapy or taking medication?

@recoveryisneverlinear Unfortunately none of those. First I gotta figure out how to tell my parents ^^

@anonymous_purple💜 I don’t know if this applies but remember that they don’t need to know everything about you, you can be a good person and still keep things private 🫶

@Ricky Gill Mine is the same, and often latches onto past events. I have constant ethical/ moral debates in my head which lead to questioning my intentions, my identity, and even convincing myself I am a criminal/ bad person. Its so hard ❤️‍🩹 it also makes me feel this constant sense that everything could go wrong at any moment, and I have an intense fear of making mistakes/ hurting people. Sending support 🫂

@recoveryisneverlinear Yes! I was reviewing a past event just a second ago where I was wondering if it made me a bad person or not. A lot of checking if I'm a bad person thinking. I just want to live for myself, you know?

@Ricky Gill I hear you 100% its really tough. For me I have past events where I know I genuinely did do something bad. Its about letting myself move on and take the lesson from those things. I try to apply acceptance techniques but its an every day struggle. Remember that the fact you are worried about it is actually evidence of how much you care ❤️‍🩹 You worry because you so badly want to be a good person- but even good people make mistakes!

@recoveryisneverlinear Do you ever have intrusive self critical thoughts where you don't even agree with the morality they're putting on you? Many of my unwanted thoughts are self critical. I'm not iniciating them. I almost never even agree with these self critical intrusive thoughts but they are there to torment me.

@Ricky Gill Yes all the time. I am incredibly self critical. I think that people without OCD would conclude ‘Okay, I don’t like that I did that, but its in the past’. I can’t ever seem to do that… I constantly believe I don’t deserve good things in my life and happiness because of it. Its been my biggest theme for a couple of months now! Its really tough