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With my ocd it feels like I’m forcing myself to be happy with a guy. I’d only date a guy but I don’t think I smile and light up. Idk :( Do yall ever experience these feelings? Like idk whats genuine anymore and whats not
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Yeah same I’d only date girls but my mind tells me otherwise so I don’t know what’s real or what to believe.
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Omg yes!! It feel natural but at the same time doesn't? Nowsdays I look at attractive girls on the internet and my heart starts beating. It's genuinely scaring me that I'm lesbian
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@lemondew Yup me too, wth is this! I know for a fact I’ve been attracted to boys for all my life. How could I be lesbian? And I can’t be bisexual either I never felt anyway towards a girl other than them being physically attractive.
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@advice? I feel the same way. But now mind has convinced me that I've had crushes on my best friends and I forced myself to be attracted to boys
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@advice? Same here but hocd is trying to make me feel like I was and I know that’s bs cause I know I never have been, cause I remember vividly liking guys. And I am sometimes like “maybe I wasn’t aware” and I’m like “no I would be cause I was aware of it for boys” so ya. It’s so confusing. And I have anxiety even thinking about it, do you guys feel like that? Like it’s just constant anxiety and heavy feeling on your chest, like you can’t eat and stuff. Almost fear? Or is that just me
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@annehatesocd No it isn't just you. Whenever I go out I feel like I'm attracted to all the girls and makes me feel uncomfortable and fatigued. Makes me so tired I just walk slow to cope with it
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@lemondew Do you ever get a dizzy feeling when your surrounded by lots of people in public?
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@JS0406 Yes, I do and these days I feel so tired and dizzy that I just want to be in bed and do nothing. Makes me really wish I never existed at all
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@lemondew Exact same as me
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@JS0406 Kills me from inside to know I'm gay or I could possibly be one. I also constantly reassure I'm straight and check to see whether Im attracted to girls. I've been doing it so often, it's now something I do subconsciously and I can't control
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@lemondew Same I need to check if I’m attracted to guys but if we keep checking and checking it makes us believe that we are actually attracted
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@lemondew I know it’s hard to control and you can’t stop yourself
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@JS0406 Honestly I've checked so many times I genuinely feel like I AM attracted to girls and now I'm not at peace at all
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@JS0406 Yes I really cannot and it pains me.
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it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
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I don't know for sure if I have HOCD, but it seems like I do, I tried to accept the idea that I'm gay, I felt calm, and then I started to get scared because I didn't feel anxiety anymore, I still feel attracted to my girlfriend, both physically and emotionally, but I feel an attraction to boys, sometimes I panic when I feel attracted and sometimes I don't (but most of the time I do) and I don't want to break up with my girlfriend I want to get back to normal
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I feel like I'm lying to myself, like I just don't accept that I'm gay, I don't want to be gay, I don't want to feel any kind of attraction anymore, I want to go to a psychologist to find out if I really have hocd or if it's just an excuse, because it feels like I really am gay, but nothing was authentic, it all started with thoughts that made me panic extremely hard and I felt like crying and I had delusions, I don't understand why this is happening to me, I didn't like any boys before the thoughts appeared, but exactly one day after they appeared, all the boys were attractive, of all ages, I want to recover :( I'm only 17 years old, for about 2 months I've been having thoughts, I don't know what to do, I can't go to a psychologist, I need help :(
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