Paranoia + Persecutory delusions + OCD

Hey everyone, I think this is a safe space to share what's going on. I am diagnosed with OCD and Schizoaffective disorder. I am dealing with severe paranoia. This paranoia involves fearing people are watching me in public, judging me, or mistreating me and it is severe. It's gotten so bad that I don't like wearing glasses in my own car while driving because I think people are still judging me for my glasses. When I walk outside, it always feels like people are watching me and judging me. I fear talking to any person including disliking phone calls because I fear I will be mistreated. When I walk outside it really does feel like people can "sense" me being there the same way they can sense my wearing my glasses or not in the car. I think I look better without glasses. My vision isn't terrible but it's nice to see more clearly when I am driving and I am actually taking them off because I believe people are still judging me and may even treat me a certain way that is bad if I wear glasses. My current life looks like avoidance of nearly all people and places. I feel safe when I am at home. I am not going to grad school nor working because of my paranoia and dislike for people. I am living on a large inheritance which I am blessed to have. I tried applying for disability income anyway since I am disabled and have no income from job. I didn't qualify because of my assets which makes sense. I am disabled, my OCD and paranoia is preventing me from functioning normally. I today had an experience at the restaurant where I felt like I may have been mistreated. What happened was I entered the restaurant to pick up a to-go order I placed online. I was reaching for my bag and they stopped me to check to make sure I was the correct person (because I learned that people steal other peoples orders a lot there and on that day they said someone stole $90 worth of other people's orders). So I showed them my confirmation on my phone as usual and told them I am a regular who comes in all the time. They said they don't see my name on the confirmation on my phone and I told them they always accept it when I show them. They then said they both don't recognize me when I said I am a regular but then they said "but that doesn't mean you don't come in often" and I have OCD doubt that they said something opposite like they doubted I came in often which would be mistreatment but it sounds unlikely they would have said it that way. So I had to wait a little longer than usual for them to check to make sure I was the correct person for my order. Then one of the older ladies bumped her arm against my arm to get my attention and said, "someone just stole $90 worth of food earlier." I felt like she was invading my space and I felt a small pain even just from that. Then I chose a time to say "I wouldn't want someone stealing my food and she was turning around at the time like she ignored me or didn't hear me." Then I said it again to the other lady and she agreed by saying of course. This was very significant because I felt the need to clarify that I understand why they wanted to check me because I wouldn't want someone stealing my food to make up for the annoyance of waiting. But yeah, I just feel like I was mistreated and I don't like how she touched my arm, when the first one didn't acknowledge when I said I wouldn't want someone stealing my food (My OCD involves feeling the need to clarify, explain, and confess information which can get really overwhelming at times which is why I avoid talking to people to have more peace of mind) I am actually getting off my medications which were helping me just so I could drink alcohol. I want to drink because it helps with the boredom and does make me feel better if I don't over drink. I recently have been acting irrational where I got back on meds and quit drinking then I reverted back to drinking and not on meds and I keep changing my mind. I also notice that some days my surroundings feel dreamier and hazy like I am in disconnect from reality, like a derealization.