OCD latches on something that is true please help

So before HOCD sometimes my OCD latches to true things. Like I was denaing years ago that I started to fall in love with a friend of mine. A girl. And later I started to obsess about it. Trying to disprove it. Doing compulsions against it. And later when my HOCD was going on, I admited it that it was kinda true. Now do you see what I write. ,,kinda,,. Because even now that I admitted it there's an automatic fight against it when I don't want it anymore. So I'm scared that it's the case with HOCD too. Because if a few times my OCD was true then that means it's always. And how could I ignore the thoughts and not doing the compulsions at my HOCD when I know that my OCD can latch to true things? Please someone help me

anca

Date posted: 18h

I really wish I could help you but unfortunately my mind works the same and I'm going though this too. I feel like my ocd has latched onto real things many times before. It's hard to believe when people say that ocd is always lying cause I feel like mine doesn'd, it blows things out of proportions, but it has been right before. I try to tell myself that this way of thinking is just another ocd thought, another way to get me to engage but it's not helping much. I hope you'll feel better and I hope we're both wrong about ocd being right :)

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

Do you wanna talk about it? What was the things that were true and OCD latched on them?

anca

Date posted: 18h

@Anonymous For example last year I was talking to a guy and we had been talking for a few months and everything was going great but I just felt like something was wrong but couldn't tell what exactly. And then I started to notice that even though we were having many conversations about values and principles and we seemed to have very similar views on life he was very vague whenever I tried to talk politics. He wasnt changing the subject but he was kinda dancing around the questions but I thought maybe he's not opinionated on these matters. But of course my ocd couldn't accept that conclusion and I started thinking "what if he's racist" "what if he's homophobic" "what if he voted X candidate" but I had no proof for any of this and I would have conversations about these things with him and he never acted like he was racist or homophobic or anything but I still felt like something wasn't right. And I was obsessing all day for weeks, I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat because I kept having these what ifs. And then one day he said the n word and that was my proof. And after I called him out on that we started a conversation where he was actually honest for the first time and admitted that he's homophobic and that "he uses the n-word because he grew up with rap music and everyone is too sensotive" 💀 But yeah, this would be an example where I had what ifs with no proof for them except for my gut feeling and they turned out to be real. And for my soocd that I'm experiencing now I do have a lot of proof of my fear being true so how can I believe it's not telling the truth. This was so long sorry :)

titaniumonetwo

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18h

One thing being true doesn't mean everything else is true and even then you're thinking about something from the past, you can't know for sure if it was or wasn't true. Quite commonly OCD can just make things massive rather than it having to be entirely untrue. Take the common OCD symptoms of making people sick and hand washing. Let's suppose that someone has OCD like this and washes their hands 300 times per day with bleach and causes all sorts of issues for themselves. They then find that one day when they didn't do it, someone got ill because they spread a cold or whatever. Would it imply that everytime they thought they were going to make someone ill before was true?

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

I know you wanted to help me but that ,,OCD can just make things massive rather than it having to be entirely untrue.,,Is triggered me XD

titaniumonetwo

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18h

@Anonymous I'm sorry for triggering you. My point was not to suggest your thoughts were true, only that OCD can basically form around anything that is important to you and it can blow things out of proportion along with also just being complete nonsense.

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

@titaniumonetwo I know It's okay

Penguin23

Date posted: 18h

This is so relatable:(

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

OMG thank you I that I was the only one

Penguin23

Date posted: 18h

@Anonymous No problem! For me, my ocd uses other ocd things as “evidence” that I did something bad. That’s how my biggest ocd problem happened.

Cat-Mom

Date posted: 18h

OCD latches onto true things to prove a point that isn’t necessarily the case.

Anonymous

Date posted: 7h

If it feels like OCD, it is!!!!! If repetitive thoughts are taking you away from healthy functioning which is your inner calm which can handle any problem your are facing without panic and obsession, it’s OCD.

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