Bad, sad and anemic

A few years ago, I was careless in how I lived, I failed college semesters, didn’t care about budgeting, administrative things like taxes, etc. Now, as I have gotten older and am engaged- i have gotten my life together, but I am PETRIFIED that I have made a mistake that will come back to harm my fiancé or our future family. Has anyone else dealt with this? I am so scared I’ll go to jail for a mistake I didn’t even know I made. I want to go back to college and I am so ashamed even though I’m only on academic probation. How do I break free? Also, I’ll be getting a series of iron infusions soon. Anyone have experience with iron infusion

Luna78

Date posted: 2d

I hace dealt with constant obsessions and worries about going to jail but not usually from something I did in the past, although that has happened as well. I will obsess that I will do something by accident and end up in jail even though I would never do such a thing. I have been told to just identify it as an OCD thought and then move on, but it is harder said than done. And about college, don’t be ashamed. Everyone struggles at one point in school. I went from being an all A student to not being able to get out of bed to go to class and then not be able to turn anything in on time due to my mental health. And after all that i spent one year in the career I thought I was going to spend my life in and realized it was a disaster for my mental health. It is never too late to reach goals in life. Best of luck!

AutumnCandle

Date posted: Yesterday

@Luna78 I also deeply and currently struggle with the fear of going to jail and losing everything. It’s a really hard and scary theme to have

Luna78

Date posted: Yesterday

@AutumnCandle It is horrible. I think about it everyday.

AutumnCandle

Date posted: Yesterday

@Luna78 It’s nice to know that I’m not alone in this struggle :)

joyfilled

Date posted: 2d

I failed a semester of college too and by the grace of God somehow graduated!! I was scared of jail too! God healed this in me by having me do prison ministry and my fear of it went away. I guess God was doing ERP on me 😅 congratulations on engagement! I’m anemic too but have never had iron infusions. Hope it goes well.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

@joyfilled Thank you for your reply! I failed like 2 I am hoping they will work with me! I want to live my life so bad

joyfilled

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous You got it!!!

AutumnCandle

Date posted: Yesterday

@joyfilled Can I ask what was your experience doing prison ministry? How did it help your fear?

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22h

@AutumnCandle I’d love to hear about this too @joyfilled!

joyfilled

Date posted: 15h

@AutumnCandle Well in my head going to prison was like one of the worst things that could ever possibly happen to me but I met so many faithful women of God who had met Jesus and repented for their sins while in prison and were in their word daily praying for others and turning their lives around and finding purpose. I would see miracles happen there and feel Gods presence and it reminded me that there’s no place where He leaves us.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 15h

@joyfilled Wow, that is very profound. God is everywhere even in places where you’d think you’d be in hell. That is a beautiful ministry and thank you for participating in it and sharing your story.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

Yes, I have feared my past will come back to haunt me for most of my life.

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