What is this need truthful opinions pls be honest

- Intentionally think only sexual thoughts about my sister I sent to move on and not care sometimes, but try to make it about everyone to make it less weird?? - When I an just thinking normally - I come up with like different thoughts or scenarios to be told I’m a good person and that there is no limit - Need reassurance a lot - I think a thought and will be like when I admit thins I will be told I’m good so it’s okay - when I get health anxiety or get worried I get bad thoughts about people with cancer - intentionally bring up blasphemous thoughts as well and then ignore them Sometimes I feel guilty, remorseful, weirded out etc and sometimes I don’t It’s like I don’t want to think but I think it intentionally anyway This and this and this and I’ll be fine and I won’t be told I’m bad

Michael N

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

I have the same trouble — seeking affirmation, acceptance, reassurance from others to fill the void inside that believes I need to hear “you’re good” from others to even believe it just a tiny bit myself. It’s all so classic OCD!

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@Michael N Good to know!! I just hope everything that I listed here doesn’t make me terrible. You lmk lol!

joyfilled

Date posted: Yesterday

The blasphemous comment makes me think you’re a Christian. For me the most healing thing has just been talking to God about thoughts I don’t like. Because the truth is, when we have faith in Jesus, we are completely washed clean already by the blood of Jesus. It’s not important that we know and keep track of every thought we ever have. We just turn away from sin and intrusive thoughts which are separate things and we fix our eyes on Jesus and He will love on you

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@joyfilled That is beautifully said and yes I am! All these started when I started my walk with Him

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@joyfilled Maybe he is just changing my heart posture?? U an just going to ignore the thoughts completely, but for some reason when I focus on Him I get nervous and then they happen again for some reason that is only sometimes

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@joyfilled I feel like it’s also spiritual warfare at the same time lol I’m confessing all these thoughts to my parents and at confession and to Jesus

joyfilled

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous I was using confession as a compulsion so be careful to not do that. The bible does want us to confess sin, but intrusive thoughts are not sin and also you don’t have to confess the same thing over and over.

joyfilled

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous I think this has happened to me in the past where I get nervous talking to him and it’s because I was scared of wrath but when I switch my tone to like he’s my friend it totally changes things like going on a walk and being like hey God how are you doing today? Thanks for the trees and giving me a home and the pretty weather etc. or hey God I’m kinda feeling sad about this what do you think? Because that’s so different than when I approach him in an ocd way with like I repent I repent I repent over and over

Anonymous

Date posted: 12h

@joyfilled That is exactly what I was doing lol

Anonymous

Date posted: 12h

@joyfilled Exactly like He loves him but I feel like I’m waiting for punishment

joyfilled

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous Romans 8:1 is so good! And Ephesians 1 and 2 and psalm 139 and Matthew 28:18-20 and Matthew 11:28-30 and John 10

joyfilled

Date posted: 12h

@joyfilled God has also brought me a lot of freedom through watching UPPERROOM prayer sets on YouTube. They worship with such love and freedom and led by Holy Spirit

joyfilled

Date posted: 12h

@joyfilled Ooh and the specific YouTube video by UPPERROOM from years ago called the blood where Joel Figueroa was singing

Anonymous

Date posted: 12h

@joyfilled I love that thank you so much!!!

Michael N

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

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