Psychosis or magical thinking?

I have read Tarot for years, but I had to give it up for my benefit. I was using it as a way to find certainty and reassurance. I still like the cards, artwork and the fun of it, but I have to reconcile that no deck of cards is going to provide certainty. Nothing is going to do that. That was a tough one for me because it was a hobby. However, it was a hobby driven by reassurance and a need for certainty. I’ve considered giving my cards up, but I am just no longer using them for myself or others.

Maybe it's both. I don't know you. Maybe you are going insane. Spiraling = ruminating though which is a compulsion so you should probably do your erp and rpms to get out of that rabbit hole. "Nothing I think about will give me 100% certainly" go on a walk focus on some trees and listen to some birdsong. Good luck.

Hi! It might help to seek treatment if you have not already. Not because it sounds like something is wrong, but because it could help with clarity. These concerns you’re describing could easily just be an ocd theme. Meeting with a therapist could help you differentiate between genuine mental health warning signs and ocd mixed with an interest in spirituality. It is not uncommon to experience magical thinking or concerns about your mental sanity at all with ocd!

Seems you need some top line behaviors. Can you give yourself a break? Delete social media. Instead of consuming other people’s messages, start writing your own. You got this. I know it’s hard but the core issue seems to be that you don’t trust yourself and you’re looking outwards for reassurance, both through the tarot readings, birth chart and even here. Take some time to sit down and journal. You’ll be alright.

It looks very much like ocd. Maybe a magical think + fear of going insane ocd. Treat it as ocd anyway unless you have 100% undoubtable certainty that it's not. "Insane" people don't have the insight to analyze their mental state either. Treat it as ocd. It's okay I've had very similar thoughts