What to do when your convinced by your OCD?

Hi everyone I hope you all are doing well . I have been really struggling with this idea , I know I have POCD , but with it I think I have false memory and real event too . I worked with kids for the first time I started working and I have a situation I keep thinking I did something wrong like something terrible if you get what I mean and it was just me sorting some cds in a room with two of my students at my old after school care camp job and my brain is telling me I did something wrong while doing it and like it makes me feel ill cause I get “ memories “ of me saying something weird or acting weird or just that feeling and I genuinely don’t know what I did ??? And same when I was a tutor it’s just making me think why did I even work those jobs I was so passionate and good at my jobs and now I quit them all because I’m scared . I’m scared of who I might be , it’s really difficult and I’ve tried ERP and I just think I’m terrible and I need to be locked away or I will be one day and it breaks my heart because my colleagues all liked me too and it feels like I’m playing a facade and mabye I really did something terrible I can’t forgive myself . It just keep looping in my head you did this and I feel so guilty crushing guilt and I can’t even try and work again even tho I need to support myself through my studies . It’s really hard and if anyone has anyone other advice or have gone through similar situations I appreciate any advice , comments and suggestions 🥹❤️

astoldbyginger

Date posted: Yesterday

I struggled with false memory ocd for two years, very uncomfortable and debilitating, I couldn’t distinguish what was actually real anymore. If something brings you this much distress thinking that you did it… that means more than likely you would NEVER do that. Stay strong friend we are all humans and all of us here who struggle with OCD have been in this same boat at one point or another❤️

lavender1010

Date posted: Yesterday

@astoldbyginger Thank you so much for your response . Ahh it’s just so frustrating cause I feel like 100% I did something wrong and I feel so bad about it but what a terrible sub type this is fr 😭

astoldbyginger

Date posted: Yesterday

@lavender1010 I struggled with pocd when I was in fourth grade it was awful, especially as a child newly diagnosed with OCD. It’s one I’ve the more distressing sub types i for sure agree with you. Stay strong💛

lavender1010

Date posted: Yesterday

@astoldbyginger I appreciate the support so much !! What a young age to struggle with this we will get through this 🥹❤️

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

I’m on the same boat POCD + real event OCD + false memory OCD Those 3 right there are a total mind fuck .. I just don’t fucking get it It’s like mad convincing .. And then when false attraction is there (false attraction statements, intrusive false attraction thoughts, etc.) plus the false groinals / arousals … like what in the fuck is even going on ????? It’s so hard I also work with kids and I had POCD back in December of 2023 and it randomly “ “ went away around April of 2024. But those months were the longest months of my life. I couldn’t even concentrate at work. Even now in 2026, the last month has felt like it’s been years already .. I’m passionate about what I do and now I’m scared. I go back to work in August and it’s difficult and .. idk I do make a few posts on here and idk if anyone sees them. I’ve also replied to people’s POCD posts on the NOCD app from the past and hopefully the OP sees my comment or so .. I also make posts on Reddit to at least understand something I’ve white knuckled OCD since 2023 and I’ve gotten help recently on here with NOCD and sometimes idk if it’s worth going through it with NOCD when I’ve gotten all the resources on my own

lavender1010

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous It’s really difficult and I understand your situation . The combination of 3 and working with or have worked with kids causes me to memory review a lot and I don’t know if you have experienced that compulsion but omg coupled with real event and false memory I think at times I’ve genuinely commited terrible things my brain tells me I have and it’s just like is this real did I actually say that do that like awkward vague moments become disgusting and I struggle to trust myself . To be honest the idea of sitting with uncertainty is really important but for me and these themes , it’s really hard . Sitting with the uncertainty I might have committed a crime , be disgusting person , mabye got it jail ? It’s so hard but that’s the only way to recover I see cause the hold it has on us is very strong right now . If u ever want to talk please feel free to message here , we can get through this ! 🥺

Samwell

Date posted: Yesterday

Best of luck!!

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