Accepting ur harm OCD thoughts is the hardest f*cking thing ever! It’s been more than a year and no matter what I can’t accept them.... I feel so evil mental and I feel I enjoy these thoughts... and don’t get me started with my vivid dreams lord I feel I’m gonna lose control and kill someone I hate or someone who’s been rude to me.

I typed out a reply, but I’m not sure if it posted because it’s not showing up in the comments! But you’re welcome for the help, I’m happy I am helping you! You deserve support in your recovery! Basically, urges are just like the thoughts- they mean nothing. We may get thoughts, urges, feelings, sensations, etc, but they don’t mean anything. Others get thoughts and urges but they know they hold no real meaning. OCD is just lying to us and it likes to use anything it can to try to convince it’s telling the truth, OCD is very sneaky. Ultimately, none of the thoughts really matter because what’s underneath it all is fear for all of us with OCD. Stay strong and keep fighting ❤️❤️❤️

I don’t think you accept the thoughts as true, you just have to accept that you have them. Start by accepting that you have the thoughts, and as that gets easier you can accept the uncertainty and work on ERP. You’re not accepting that the thoughts are true or real or that you enjoy them, you accept that you are an individual who has thoughts that do not define you. You accept that you have OCD and obsessions that do not define you. I hope this helps.

Also, feelings are just like thoughts-meaningless. Just because you feel evil and like you enjoy them, does not make it true.

I know I feel Like I enjoy them like the more I accept it my brain tells me I wanna commit these thoughts and actions... also whenever someone is mean or disrespectful to me my brain tells me I wanna kill them or someshit and a compulsion I have is that I remove them from all social media so they don’t remind me of anything... does erp even work...

ERP does work, it is the top treatment method for OCD and you can use this app to do exposures on a daily basis. Try telling your brain “maybe” or “whatever” when the thoughts come. This has helped me. I try not to react to the thoughts with panic, and instead talk back to them saying “yeah, maybe that is true” challenge your thoughts by asking yourself if the thoughts are true facts and do the compulsions benefit you. It is hard, but it’s definitely possible to overcome OCD.

Thank you so much!!! What do I about the urges to act out on it thought :( thanks for ur help ❤️❤️❤️

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