Can OCD make random feelings feel like crushes?

I’ve had ROCD my entire life but I experienced something different that I really do NOT like or understand. I’ve had a best friend I’ll call Noah for 4 years and I’ve always deeply loved him in a platonic manner. We hooked up ONCE the summer after graduation and I was immediately icked out after and refused to do that ever again. When Noah even barely mentioned doing it again I was like hellll no I don’t see you like that!! But since my recent breakup exactly a year later, being around someone so understanding of me, on the right track and with a lifestyle and passions that align with mine that my ex doesn’t have has given me a HUGE SURGE of emotions. I contemplating kissing him, hooking up with him, felt sexual tension etc. it’s SO weird and so real that I can fully honestly say it felt nice and interesting. I was sooo drawn to him, like I put a love lense on and see him through it when I’m in front of him. Once I’m not in front of him I couldn’t care less! I realize he isn’t even cute to me, and I get icked out for a reason! We are friends! For! A reason! But I can’t shake the feeling I get when I’m in front of him??? But once he’s gone he’s gone, I don’t care where! I’d only be jealous if he dated someone else just cuz they’d get a cool guy, nothing else. The worst part is I got back in contact with my ex and had to explain this to him and it’s stopping us from getting back together. Pls help Also weird side note I know if he actually went in to kiss me I’d also be icked out??? So why did I feel like I want to when I see him?How do I get rid of this feeling so I can finally get back to the boy I want?

Cbcbcb9898

Date posted: Yesterday

Why would pursuing your friend be so bad? It sounds like you have a great connection. Sometimes an ‘ick’ isn’t really for good reason. I think you’re letting these thoughts stress you out too much (I think that’s what OCD is). Maybe talk to your friend about how you’re feeling. You and your ex broke up for a reason. Also, you don’t have to tell your ex or anyone else how you’re feeling. And if you do and they don’t understand, it sounds like they don’t understand you. That’s ok, not everyone will. But you want to date someone who does. Love you!

bsquiggled

Date posted: Yesterday

@Cbcbcb9898 We do! But I want my ex and not him!!! And we are actively working on fixing things. So are you saying I really do like this guy then? I’m absolutely mortified and don’t want to!!!!!!!

Cbcbcb9898

Date posted: Yesterday

@berry blue - I cant tell you if you like him or not! Thats up to you. ROCD does silly things to us. I think it makes us scared that a really close friendship means we have a crush, even if we don’t want that. The reality is, those two feelings are very similar, and thats why we get confused. The OCD is what makes you hyperfocus on that confusion. I’ve had these exact same fears about friends. That’s all it is, a fear we let hijack our minds.

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

I think OCD can definitely do that because as per my other comment on your other post, it happened to me. FELT like a crush but WAS NOT a crush. The never ending thoughts whether u identify with then or not is the OCD. Key word in your heading “FEEL” like crushes… not BE crushes. If you truly say you dont feel anything for him, that is your truth and you should trust it!

ooooooooooooo

Date posted: Yesterday

I think I have something like this happening to me. I thought I had a crush on this guy, but turns out I just wanted to be friends with them.

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

Chiming into the thread here also struggling to decipher feelings vs interest and curiosity. Are we supposed to just be aware of the possibility of interest or crush feelings w/o determining what is real or isn’t? Been struggling w ROCD recently.

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