Any advice? ASAP

- I maladaptive daydream badly acting like I’m in tv shows and movies acting like an famous actor and that I am besties with celebrities and acting like I am in photo shoots, and on red carpets - I pretend I’m in interviews, etc. - sexual thoughts about me with celebrities (insane IK) - I stopped maladaptive daydreaming a little while when I got back home from college cause I’m like okay this is not normal so I have to stop and I did and then I started my walk with Christ and then that is sort of when the bad insane thoughts started to happen. I have been having no motivation to live for Christ or do anything that involves Him really but I push through and do my prayers and read my Bible and everything, but not truly 100% fulfilling the work. I am falling back into my daydreaming phase again and all my bad thoughts come up again especially the blasphemous and sexual ones yet I go back to the daydreaming anyway cause it makes me so happy. For example, like I daydream and am having fun then a blasphemous thought comes up and I ignore it or try to stop it and I’m like saying to myself and ask for forgiveness from God “you have to stop daydreaming cause then the thoughts come up” and then I go back to it again right away. It’s also like the daydreaming makes me so happy, but I also need to stop cause then the bad thoughts come up again. I feel like I truly might not be forgiven cause I go back to the daydreaming without a care and look forward to it. Any advice? - I also feel that I shouldn’t do it like feel conviction in a way, but I ignore it and then of course the bad thoughts pop up and I’m asking for forgiveness. Is it a sin? I don’t want to be like oh it’s not a sin so I can continue to do it!

Plushii

Date posted: 10h

Oh my gosh I do this as well!!! Ever since I can remember actually. I’ve always acted like I was in interviews. Recently (last 2 or so years) I’ve begun acting like I’m streaming whenever I play video games. I talk to chat, read off fake donations, everything I find that it helps me have fun and take my mind off of anxiety ect. Maybe reframing your experience to a mindset similar to this might help you Stay safe

Anonymous

Date posted: 10h

@Plushii Oh my goodness!! I’m so glad I’m not the only one lol! I have been doing this for a while myself I think it actually started when I when through a tough point in my life to help bring me happiness. Thank you so much for your advice!

Pija

Date posted: 10h

I can totally relate on the daydreaming part! Whenever I find a tv show I really like I always imagine myself as one of the characters and I create new plot lines and act them out and Ive been doing that for as long as I can remember(I guess I was actually born to be a film director). Or another thing I do is every night before I fall asleep I imagine Im doing a podcast and talk about my day, my feelings, fears, upcoming plans... it helps me process emotions. And I was definitely at a point where I was concerned about all of this but then I realized it is not causing any harm, it helps me and it's fun. And as much as Im aware a lot of people do that too but don't usually talk about it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 9h

@Pija You just describe exactly what I do to a T. I am so glad I’m not the only one! I also act like I’m besties with celebrities my age or acting with other celebrities in tv shows. I also fully act like I’m in photo shoots and performing at concerts. This is bad but instead of my og fam I imagined I had like two brothers and a sister and I was the oldest instead of having my three older sisters which is terrible. Like I hope I don’t genuinely wish to have a different family like I love my family, but I did that a lot which is insane. So I went to insane lengths. This is probs not normal.

Anonymous

Date posted: 9h

@Pija Plz lmk if I’m insane

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